(pager beeping)
It's impossible to describe the panic that comes over you, when you're a surgeon
and your pager goes off in the middle of the night
Your heart starts to race. Please don't be mine.
Don't be mine. Your mind freezes.
Don't be mine. Your fingers go numb.
Not mine.
Wake up.
Oh! (muffled voice) I'm up.
They're paging you. I'm up.
You're invested. Mm.
(pager buzzing)
I'm sleeping! (chuckles)
They're someone's mom, someone's dad, someone's kid,
And now it's on you,
Because that someone's life is now in your hands.
Robbins, Karev's with your patient in trauma two.
Torres, come with me.
We have a 15-year-old female.
She fell off the roof of her house.
Now I think that we should-- she's gonna be okay, right? Please, I just need to know.
Is she gonna be okay? And this is her mother.
Mrs. Boyd, I need to bring dr. Torres
Up to speed right now, okay? She's never been in any accident before.
She's never even broken any bones.
Oh, you paged me here at 4:00 a.M.
For a couple of broken bones? More like 50.
♪ is it ever gonna be enough? ♪
Ow. As surgeons,
We're always invested in our patients. (whimpers)
(ultrasound whooshing) Laura Young, 30 weeks pregnant.
Car accident. Head CT showed a subdural.
Shepherd's coming in. Baby's in distress. OB's on its way. Oh, it hurts.
It really hurts. Okay, wait. Hold on. Stop. Move the wand up.
What? Okay, baby's brain is hemorrhaging.
She needs a crash "c" while shepherd handles the bleed.
Get ready to grab a rail and start running. But when your patient's a child...
Get another unit of packed cells, meet me in the OR Right away.
You're not just invested... Oh, whoa, whoa, whoa. We need the OR.
You're responsible... Well, we need it, too. We're already on our way.
There's only one OR. Prepped this time of night. Which is why we need it.
Mine's got a subdural. 50 broken bones.
Stroke in the womb! Oh!
Whoa. All right, uh, get another OR. Ready now.
Responsible for whether or not that child survives,
Has a future. (screaming)
And that's enough to terrify anyone.
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(derek) what's her status? Mom's heart rate and, uh, BP. Has been fluctuating,
But she's ready for you. All right, let's prep her for a craniotomy.
Apgar's only 4. We need to get to the nicu now.
All right, drain's in a good position.
Yeah, she's breathing over the vent.
Maybe we should consider extubating her? Yeah, but watch for apneic episodes,
And keep an eye out for her CBC.
There's still too much blood draining from her head.
What time is it, Karev? Uh, half past 8:00.
Half past 8:00. I've already been wake for 5 hours,
And my day hasn't even started.
Rough way to start your morning. A stroke before you're even born--
Rough way to start a life.
Yeah.
Hey, I brought you some coffee.
Oh, you already have one. Oh, no. I want your coffee. I need your coffee.
Okay, when you see cristina, she is gonna be mad.
She's gonna be mad at me for not paging her in here last night,
Possibly mad at you for not waking her up either.
Now I am handling this. Do not engage her.
Do not provoke her. Simply ignore her, all right?
Oh, that's your plan--ignore the scalpel-hungry animal?
Yep, until I come up with something better.
Hmm.
(chuckles)
Ahh.
Okay, I know this is the first time
On a peds rotation with me for some of you.
Not for others.
But I wanted you to understand that I run my peds unit
A little differently than you may be used to.
This is not general surgery in miniature.
These are the tiny humans. These are children.
They believe in magic. They play pretend.
There is fairy dust in their I.V. Bags.
They hope and they cross their fingers
And they make wishes.
And that makes them more resilient than adults.
They recover faster, survive worse. They believe.
In peds, we have...
Miracles and magic.
In peds, anything is possible.
(elevator bell dings)
Morning, dr. Robbins.
Good morning, dr. Wallace.
I see that you've already introduced yourself
To mr. And mrs. Boydyes. Reminde of hillary at that age.
Such an overachier.
Dr. Yang, why don't you present?
Yeah.
(clears throat)
Excuse me, little... Doctor boy.
Uh, hillary boyd, 15 years old, fell off the roof of her house.
52 acute fractures were diagnosed
When she was admitted last night.
An intricate and extremely challenging o.I.F. Surgery
Was performed by dr. Torres and dr. Hunt
This morning before rounds.
Thank you, dr. Yang. (callie) if she fares well enough today, I'd like
To go in tomorrow to repair her subtrochanteric fracture next.
(arizona) mm. Can anyone tell me
The proper dosage of ceftriaxone for a pediatric patient?
50 milligrams per kilogram per day. Mm-hmm.
And, dr. Wallace, can you tell me
The proper dose for this patient if she were 42 kilograms?
2.1 grams per day...
If you carry the decimal.
(sighs)
Okay, who's presenting?
I am, dr. Robbins.
Proceed. Wallace anderson...
10 y old--almost 11-- been here for 7 months.
In and out over the past two years.
Suffers from short gut syndrome,
Which means he can't properly absorb nutrition.
Exactly. Dr. Percy? Uh, 15 intestinal surgeries to date,
Plus a bowel lengthening procedure,
Which helped for a while,
But recently, he's had to go back to being fed through t.P.N. Yum.
How'd he do this morning? We covered some pretty advanced algebraic conversions.
Dr. Robbins helps me with my math and science homework
By letting me go on rounds. (under breath) fascinating.
(man) we try to keep his life as normal we can,
Even living in a hospital. But I can skip my homework
On Friday, right, since it's my birthday?
Since it's your birthday.
What about dr. Robbins? It is her birthday, too.
I'm afraid I can't skip my homework, wallace,
But I can come celebrate with you like I promised.
(woman laughs) dr. Robbins.
We've requested a meeting later with chief webber
And a representative from the hospital board.
And we'd like you there, too.
All right.
So they didn't give you any indication
As to what this meeting was about?
You know as much as I do.
You treated their son, right? Well, you better pray
That you didn't do something to piss them off.
God knows that this hospital can't afford another misstep
Right now.
It's a pleasure to see you again, paul.
Bethany, you look lovely.
We didn't think wallace would see his 9th birthday,
Let alone his 10th.
And now this week, his 11th.
(paul) which is why we'd like to offer
Seattle grace mercy west's peds program a gift
Of $25 million.
(arizona) uh...
$25 million? Half to go to research to continue searching for a cure
For wallace's condition,
And half to the hospital itself.
Uh... I...
Um...
(chuckles) I mean...
$25 million?
Happy birthday, arizona.
I always knew that wallace's parents were wealthy,
But not $25-million wealthy.
I mean, that's "libraries named after you" kind of money,
"saved babies in africa and has dinner
At the white house regularly" type money. (mark) people don't give me that kind of money.
You have an unfair advantage. You work with children.
Oatmeal, side of fruit, wheat toast, hold the butter. Thank you.
You know what? That money is gonna make such a difference
For so many patients. It's--it's really amazing. (mark) maybe I should start doing more cleft-palate kids.
Everyone's a sucker for those.
Cheese omelet, extra butter, cinnamon toast, crispy bacon. Mine!
$25 million is pretty cool, right?
Yeah. Best birthday gift ever.
Birthday gift? Yeah.
Well, 'c-cause the money's a gift.
I mean, technically it's for the hospital, not arizona,
But since your birthday's on Friday... Um...
How does little grey know about your birthday and I don't?
Birthdays are just days like any other days.
I don't like them. Don't celebrate them.
No big deal. $25 million? That's a big deal.
Crap. I'm gonna be late. I will see you there.
Mm-hmm. Hmm.
♪
Okay, she's downplaying it, right? I'm her girlfriend.
I have to do something for her birthday, right? Yes.
(cristina) no. Of course you do. Oh! Oh! A-a surprise party.
Whoa, whoa. Bad idea.
Surprise parties are hostile.
They're dark. People jump out and scream at you.
Mm-hmm.
They never come to any good.
♪
(richard) karev.
Good morning, chief.
Uh, when you're free, come find me.
What's that all about?
He fired me. And I refused to be fired.
So I say hello to him every morning,
And he says not a word. Sounds familiar.
You haven't heard from stevens? Not a word.
They'll come around when they come around.
Chief, you need me?
Uh, I wish I didn't have to
Saddle you with this, karev, but... What is all this?
As stevens left no forwarding address,
And as you are officially her next of kin,
This is her unpaid balance of her medical bills.
Unpaid balance? I-I don't get it.
We work here at the hospital. Ah, and insurance doesn't take care of everything.
I'm sorry, but accounting's been pressuring me since the merger,
And I can't ignore it any longer.
(monitor beeping rhythmically)
What's yours in for?
Mm, delivered her yesterday.
Stroked out at 10 weeks premature.
Yours? Born with its insides on the outside.
Two days post-op.
Resilient little guy.
More bleeding overnight.
Should we try f.F.P.?
At this point, we should try anything.
Get me a repeat m.R.I. And page me
If she becomes bradycardic or starts having apnea spells.
I'll be on rounds.
Hey.
Um, I was picking up some labs from dr. Bailey,
And I saw that you had these waiting.
Thought I'd bring 'em by, save you the trip.
Thanks.
Are you okay?
I overheard a little bit of your conversation
With the chief.
I'm trying to save a baby here. Get outta my face.
Oh.
Got it.
(whispers) is he still sleeping?
No. He had a bad night.
I can still go on rounds.
I feel better. Just give me a second. You know what?
How about if you just take a rest for now.
And then you can join me for evening rounds instead?
(sighs) okay.
He listens to you more than he does to me.
Well, yeah. She's a doctor, mom.
And you're just... Well, a mom.
Oh. Okay.
Well, how about you close your eyes
And you let me do what moms do, okay?
Bad dreams, bad dreams, go away.
Good dreams, good dreams, here to stay.
Bad dreams, bad dreams, go away.
Good dreams, good dreams, here to stay.
You have to do it three times for it to work.
Oops. One more.
Bad dreams, bad dreams, go away. I want you to repeat his chemistries
And get an abdominal series. Good dreams, good dreams, here to stay.
He's had bad nights before, but I want to make sure
That we're not missing anything.
How's she doing?
Touch and go. How's the baby? Same.
Any news from the family? No, I left a message. Haven't heard back yet.
(monitor beeping erratically) I.P. Is elevated. B.P. Won't stabilize.
Uh, 100 mics of fentanyl, please. Laura?
Laura, can you hear me? My baby. Where's my baby?
She's struggling, but she's hanging on. Can I see her?
I'm sorry. No. You're too unstable to move. So is the baby.
I just want to hold her. Mm-hmm.
Please. I want to hold my baby. Laura, I need you to stay calm, okay?
Laura, just-- what if she dies before I get to hold her?
She can't. She can't go before she's ever even been held.
It's okay. It's gonna be okay. (monitor beeping erratically)
(moaning) push 10 of diazepam and give me some supplemental 0-2, please.
(pager beeps) crap. 9-1-1. It's her baby.
(monitor beeping erratically) she's bradying downd she lost a.
I'll start c-pap. Dr. Robbins.
Not right now. I think you're gonna want to see this.
It's the x-rays on wallace anderson. All right, show me.
(beeping continues) see? He has dilated loops of bowel.
All right, flip.
Flip.
Damn it. Damn it. He has another bowel obstruction,
And he's not compensating.
Okay-- I've got this. Go.
A nurse just checked that.
Yeah, a nurse checked it, I'm gonna check it,
And three other people in the o.R. Are gonna check it.
We're thorough. Honey, please let them do their jobs.
Uh, mr. And mrs. Boyd. We thought that you should know
That hillary's tox screens from yesterday
Show signs psilocybin in her bloodstream.
(mr. Boyd) what does that mean?
Well, it means that when she fell from the roof,
She was, uh-- shrooming.
Yeah. Magic mushrooms.
What? Hillary?
Mushrooms? (hillary) oh, come on.
Can everybody please chill out? What in god's name were you thinking?
You know, I can't believe...
You're a disappointment, young lady,
A big, big, disappointment. Dad, please.
Okay, the last thing I am is a disappointment.
I get straight a's. I'm on honor roll.
I run the student council. I basically am the school paper,
And I tutor kids with reading problems. Okay?
I'm every parent's dream come true, including yours.
I was exploring the bounds of my consciousness
With the help of a mushroom.
I made a calculated risk going on that roof.
Falling off? Well, that was a low-probability event,
And even low-probability events occasionally occur,
And this one did.
So, yeah, you're bummed I miscalculated
'cause it reminds you of your own fallibility.
I'm bummed, too. Let's just leave it at that.
Cap refill is five seconds.
Push one of epi.
(monitor beeping rhythmically)
It's not working. Heart rate's down to the 60s.
Starting compressions. Could I help?
Doubt it. At this rate,
This kid's not gonna last more than an hour.
She's only 30 weeks. Pretty young to survive.
So what, you're just gonna stand there and watch her die?
Mm, pretty much.
That sucks.
It is what it is. It's protocol.
(monitor beeps loudly)
Beeping drives me nuts. (beeping stops)
Look, I mean--
The kid's gonna die. Deal with it or get out.
Hey there, girl.
I got you. Yeah.
It's okay.
You're not alone.
No, you're not. You're not alone.
Wait. Hold on.
Are you saying you can't do more surgery on him,
Or you won't? It's not a question of if I can.
It's whether or not I should.
In my opinion, wallace isn't strong enough
To handle another operation.
But with surgery, how long would he have then? I... I'm not confident
That he'll even make it off the table.
But if he did, how long?
I strongly advise against--
How long?
Maybe two months. I...
I'm s--I'm sorry.
But the moment that we've been fighting for two years...
It's here.
(sobbing)
So you need to prepare yourselves
And you need to prepare wallace.
You think I've been pouring all this money into research
So that you could find a cure for some other kid? Mr. Anderson--
No. You have to do this surgery. Mr. Anderson, I'm--
You buy our son two more months.
You buy him more time so that we can buy him a cure.
I'm sorry.
(crying)
(paul and bethany speaking indistinctly)
Robbins.
These aren't people who hear the word no.
If they want surgery for their son,
They'll get surgery for their son,
Whether or not you're the one to do it.
You've been with this boy since day one.
I believe you can do this successfully.
Don't walk away now
Unless you know beyond a shadow of a doubt that you can't.
The surgery is a bad idea, chief.
But is it impossible?
In your hands... Is it impossible?
Okay.
Okay?
Okay, I'll do it. I'll try.
Oh. Is that the preemie?
Oh, yeah. I was just, uh...
Well, I tried everything.
I just thought maybe somebody should hold her
Before, you know, she...
Kangaroo.
What?
The way you're holding the baby, it's called a kangaroo hold.
Uh, there's been cases where the kangaroo
Has helped babies thrive.
But look, karev, look at the numbers.
Look at this. (chuckles) heart rate's going up.
Yeah, it is, and her temperature is normal.
Karev, you may have just
Kick-started thibaby's entire system.
Just by holding her?
Take off your shirt.
What? No. Take off your shirt. No, no.
Just--the kangaroo hold,
It's most effective when there's skin-on-skin contact.
It's usually the mom, but, you know,
You're gonna have to do.
I'm not kidding. Take off your shirt.
(monitor beeping rhythmically)
(owen) well, it looks like you used
Pretty much every piece of hardware in the hospital.
Yeah, it makes you think twice about shrooming on a roof. Yeah.
And the mouth on this one?
If I talked to my parents like that-- oh, my father would've...
Oh, you don't even want tknow. (laughs)
(monitor beeping rhythmically)
I had perfect grades, perfect record,
And I said whatever I wanted, did whatever I wanted.
My parents couldn't do a thing about it.
Want to hear about my childhood?
No? Okay.
I'll just, uh, think about it quietly in my own head.
(mal clatters) all right, nails in, everything's tight.
Let's take a look.
Fantastic. (monitor beeping erratically)
(jackson) end-tidal c-0-2 just dropped from 34 to 22.
(callie) oh, come on. Give me a break here, hillary.
She has a new murmur.
Check it. (beeping continues)
There's an air embolus in her heart. (callie) all right, flood the field with saline.
(owen) give me the bone wax. Page cardio
And set up a chest tray. And put her in trendelenburg. I can--I can aspirate it.
No, no, we wait for cardio and we try to find the source. No, it'll take me 30 seconds.
It mightake cardio half an hour to get here. Dr. Yang--
I've done this before. I know what I'm doing.
She could arrest at any moment. Dr. Yang, no. End of discussion.
(beeping continues)
(monitor beeping rhythmically)
See? It's the skin-to-skin contact.
The baby can feel your warmth better,
Sense your heartbeat better. See that?
The baby's own heart is picking up in response.
Karev, what are you doing?
He's saving a baby's life, that's what.
Dr. Bailey, I... Oh, no shirt.
He's wearing no shirt. Have you started to lactate yet?
Bailey made me. (mark) is this the room for the calendar shoot?
I was told it was downstairs. Yeah, all right. That's enough.
Everybody out. Let karev do what he's doing in private.
What is he doing exactly? Out.
(beeping continues)
(monitor beeping erratically)
(suction gurgling)
This is ridiculous. You're wasting all this time down here,
When we should be dealing with the heart problem directly. We are following protocol. Cardio is on its way,
And we can find the source of the embolus this way.
(beeping continues)
(suction gurgles)
(beeping continues)
Screw it.
(beeping continues)
Dr. Yang, the patient is not coding,
And you are not qualified to do this. Opening the left chest.
Oh, yang, really? Turn on e fluoro.
Dr. Yang. Will someone please step on the fluoro?
Or do you want me to go in blind?
Dr. Yang, put down that scalpel!
(beeping continues)
Thank you.
(owen) cristina!
(beeng continues)
(audio distorts) scissors.
(audio distorts) cristina!
Cristina! Cardio's here, yang.
It's done. I'm done.
Air embolus out.
(monitor beeps rhythmically)
The patient was crashing.
She was not crashing.
It was a procedure I've done before.
I handled it, and she's fine
Yeah, but what if she wasn't?
You could've lacerateder heart or cut the phrenic nerve.
She could've died on that table. What then?
It would've been your license.
All so you could prove what exactly?
Well, I did it to stabilize the patient.
You were just watching her vitals drop. Waiting for a c.T. Surgeon who would've been able
To take a more minimally invasive approach.
I could've done a thoracotomy myself
If I had thought it was indicated.
I've been around the block once or twice.
You know, I kinda--I kinda know what I'ing.
I'm aware of that. I was just--
You just thought ever--
You just thought-- you just thought
Everything would be better if you took charge.
(scoffs) and you know I have to report this to the chief, right?
At a time when he is scouring this place for people to fire.
(laughs) well, he's not gonna fire me.
Oh, r--of course not, 'cause you're--you're invincible.
No, he's not gonna fire me because the last time
That I did an open thoracotomy for an embolus
Was with him in his o.R.
Only he was giving me words of encouragement,
Not screaming in my ear.
Oh. (sighs)
For the record? You rocked that in there.
Hunt's just jealous he didn't do it himself.
Shut up.
Okay, you won't believe what just happened in surgery with...
Hey. You okay?
Tell me I'm great.
What?
I need for you to tell me that I'm great.
You're great. I mean really tell me,
Because I'm about to go in on a surgery right now
That I'm not sure I should be going in on,
And I can't think like that, right?
I can't go into the o.R. I feeling likeithis. On,
So... I need you to tell me I'm great,
And make me-- make me hear it.
You are great.
You...
Are... Great.
Thank you.
(knock on door)
Hey there. You ready to go?
I was gonna take you to the o.R. Myself.
I've been here a while now, dr. Robbins.
And... I've seen kids go home and go away.
Like evan-- the kid from down the hall
With asthma last month.
He died the day before he was supposed to be discharged.
You're not evan. And chloe--the heart girl?
She was here for three weeks before she died.
No one says you're gonna die. I've been here for seven months.
I've been here the longest of anyone on the floor,
By double.
Wallace-- they say it's like going to sleep.
And maybe it is.
But what if I go to sleep, and I have nightmares?
(monitor beeping rhythmically)
(exhales) more traction, please.
Damn it. The mesentery's really friable.
Percy, a little help on the suction.
This is not a good idea.
This surgery-- not a good idea.
Could we get a washcloth for dr. Robbins, please?
No, it's fine.
Just take a moment.
(monitor beeping rhythmically)
(suction gurgling)
Thank you.
Pick ups, please.
♪
I left you messages.
(sighs) I'm sorry. I was in surgery.
There were complications. I don't care, okay?
I operated on wallace tonight even when I knew better.
And I keep retracing every step, every suture,
And I keep going over it and over it-- he didn't make it?
He did. He's in recovery. That's not the point.
Recuperación. What I needed from you tonight was a little support for once.
And you weren't here. Okay, you're scared, and so you're picking a fight.
You get that, yeah? Yeah. Yeah. Fine. Whatever.
But I have helped you through crisis after crisis.
And once I thought that I could come here tonight,
And I could get something-- let it go already. It's done.
I have every right to be mad, cristina. You would've never
Pulled a stunt like that with another attending. I seem to recall callie was there. Still didt stop me.
Okay, guys, not now. You took advantage of me
And you took advantage of our relationship.
Oh, please. The kid was dying. Wait. Whoa, whoa. What kid? What happened?
Oh, so you didn't hear? No. , I didn't.
Cristina--she performed an unauthorized
And unnecessary thoracotomy against my orders. She what?
I saved the patient's life. Wait. Okay, so you were there, and you didn't tell me?
I was going to, but you were all, "tell me I'm great." so-- oh, so it's my fault that yang went rogue on a child?
No-- no, you know what? It wasn't rogue. It was brilliant.
No, it wasn't. You know, I--I'm done.
You got lucky today, cristina.
And you may think that you can get away with whatever you want,
But I am telling you, one of these days,
That luck's gonna run out. (pager beeps)
Look... Wh--
Oh, okay. So you're leaving, too?
Yes, because I have a patient.
(door closes)
Bitches.
All right, start an epi drip now.
More irrigation. Just keep it coming.
Give me a babcock clamp. Clamp. Damn it. I need more light.
Can somebody get me more light?
Pressure's dropping to 68 over 40. Pulse is racing.
Come on, wallace.
What the hell happened to the anderson boy? He's in septic shock.
His body was too unstable to handle the surgery,
Which is what I said in the first place. Well, maybe I can help.
No! No, you can't. Because as long as you're standing there
Breathing over my shoulder, I feel like I'm operating
On a stack of dollar bills-- $25-million-dollar bills--
And what I need to be invested in right now is this kid.
So please get the hell out of my o.R.!
More suction now.
How'd it go?
Damn it.
(sighs)
I'll let them know you did everything you could.
Wait, dr. Robbins, w--
Don't we have to tell the parents,
Let them know that he didn't make it? No.
What do you mean, no? I mean no.
I will not be speaking to wallace's parents.
Mr. Jennings and the chief will take care of that formality,
Because as far ashey're concerned
And as far as the andersons will be concerned,
I just killed their son.
I'm a liability, because if they were to ask me,
The truth is, I would tell them that I did just kill their son,
And they should sue, and I am responsible.
But that's not in the best interests of the hospital.
Am I close? Yeah, I think we're on the same page.
(scoffs) my luck will run out.
It has nothing to do with luck.
He's being an ass.
You know what? I rocked that embolus.
What?
He cares about you. So?
So? So maybe he's a little bit right.
I get it.
I mean, I'm dying to get out of this bed and cut,
But you did an unauthorized procedure in an o.R.
I mean, you're an amazing surgeon,
But if anything had gone wrong, that would've been your career.
I mean, he cares about your career.
He's in love with you.
I hate... Married, happy you.
(laughs) go to work,
And don't cut anybody open without permission.
You shoulda seen yang in that surgery.
I mean, she was fearless. And you are hopeless.
She's completely out of your league. Oh, I'm hopeless, huh?
(monitor beeping rhythmically)
I'm just... Stupid.
He's married, and have I mentioned, a total ass
To pretty much everyone at all times?
(miranda) karev?
Did you stay here all night?
Uh, yeah. I... I guess I did.
Go home, get some rest.
The nurse will take over for you.
No. Uh, I--I'm okay. I'm... I'm good here.
Well, you'd be good in peds, you know that?
You get invested.
You have good instincts.
You stick to your instincts.
You'd be good in peds, karev.
♪
Yeah, I know.
They, uh, say I can have visitors tomorrow.
Cool. And, um, do you have any loopies?
Or whatever you have.
They only have me on
2 milligrams of morphine at a time.
I know. How lame is that? It just--
Hey, little pusher girl. I'm hillary's doctor.
And now I have hillary's phone.
So I'm gonna give this number to the police.
How lame is that? What the hell?
Okay. Uh, I know you think you can do anything
And say anything and handle anything.
And that's, you know, almost true,
Except for the fact that you fell off a roof
'cause you were so high that you, what,
You thought you could fly?
In surgery, you almost died of a heart complication
Because your body is so strung out
From all the crap you've been putting in it
That it almost shut down completely.
Okay, that doesn't make you smarter than everyone else.
It makes you an idiot.
The only reason why you're alive is...
You know, is 'cause you're lucky.
So just, you know, grow up.
♪
(speaking inaudibly)
♪
(keys jangle)
♪
(all) surprise!
(cheers and laughter)
(noisemakers squeal) happy...
(crying)
I...
(whimpers)
(crying)
I... Um...
I-I... (sobs)
♪
Oh...
♪
Told ya.
(sighs)
♪
Okay, in retrospect,
I realize now that surprise parties are hostile,
And this was a bad idea.
Please stop crying. I'm sorry.
I'm sorry about the party. Wallace died.
And he's supposed to be turning 11 today,
And instead, he's lying in a morgue.
Oh... God.
(crying)
No, um...
I'm--I'm sorry.
I'm sorry I-I can't-- I can't stay.
No, it's okay. It's okay.
I'll take care of it. You don't have to stay.
Just--I understand. We're all surgeons.
Everyone will understand.
I...
Okay. Just go.
(keys jangle)
(faded paper figures' "north by north" playing)
♪ north by north, lest we have to settle down ♪
Might as well take advantage, huh?
What?
The party's a dud,
But at least there's free booze, right?
Right.
♪ things that london never saw ♪
(mutters)
Mm.
(sighs) go ahead and gloat.
Surprise parties never come to any good.
I think this party speaks for itself.
I don't get it.
You know, the best birthday of my life
Was the surprise party that my parents threw.
I-I-I loved it so much.
How old were you at this party?
7.
Mm. Like I said, it speaks for itself.
♪ I'll be glad to be with someone ♪
If there's--if there's anything that we can get for you,
Uh, help you with, please just--just, uh, let us know.
I-I'd be more than happy to oversee any packing
That you need done from his room.
I've already arranged for a car if...
It's ready to take you home anytime.
Arizona.
Dr. Robbins, this is a very sensitive time. (richard) let her be.
Excuse me?
I said... Let her be.
(brandi carlile's "before it breaks" playing)
It just doesn't feel real...
Any of it. It just...
It just doesn't feel real.
♪ the days are even gone ♪
Bethany, would you like to see him?
♪ lord, help me killing off the cold ♪
♪ where the raindrops sting my eyes ♪
♪ I keep them closed ♪
♪ I don't feel a lot of pain ♪
I have to admit, I'm impressed.
I never would've pegged you for the babysitting type.
Are you heading home? No, I got the baby.
Well, I'm sure somebody else could take a shift.
Do you want me to-- I can't leave, okay?
Wow. Are you really so messed up
That you can't let one person be nice to you, ever?
I can't go.
I can't go home.
I can't get izzie to call me back.
She's... Gone,
Could be dead. for all i know
She left me with a $200,000 medical bill,
And I-I...
I can't do anything about it...
But I can sit here and I can hold this baby.
That I can do.
♪
Then I'll sit here with you for a little while.
♪ I'm all right ♪
♪ don't I always seem to be? ♪
♪ am I swinging on the stars? ♪
♪ don't I wear them on my sleeves? ♪
Yang.
Doctor-- can I cristina you
Or are we not there yet? Mnh-mnh.
That's a no. Okay.
Dr. Yang, let me just tell you that
That was incredibly hot in the o.R. Yesterday. (laughs)
Very deeply hot. It was hot. You were hot.
(laughs) uh, you're drunk and you're in my room.
I... Am, in fact, inebriated.
But that's legal, you know?
And even if I wasn't, you're the rule breaker,
Which I think we established in surgery.
Really, you think that was hot?
Would it be really, really bad if I just--
You know, 'cause of the whole embolus thing
And you in general-- could I just...
♪ learn to let it bend ♪
Uh, no. I'm involved.
I'm involved.
♪
♪ say it's over ♪
Time to meet your mommy.
♪ say I'm dreamin' ♪
♪ say I'm better than you left me ♪
♪ say you're sorry ♪
♪ I can take it ♪
(voice breaks) she's so beautiful.
(sniffling and crying)
♪ say you won't ♪
♪ say you'll love me, say you don't ♪
They say, the bigger your investment
The bigger your return.
♪ let it bend ♪
♪ before it breaks ♪
Surgery yesterday?
Mm-hmm.
It wasn't just...
It was me.
Can't you see that?
See what?
See what? I...
I can't just ignore what happened, cristina.
Okay.
I'm sorry.
Look, I know, um... I know I overstepped, so...
Come home with me.
Please.
But you have to be willing to take a chance.
Okay.
♪
(woman) ♪ ready ♪
♪ or not ♪
♪ I hear a clock tock-ticking away ♪
Bad dreams, bad dreams, go away.
(crying) good dreams, good dreams, here to stay.
(sobs)
(sniffling)
Good dreams, good dreams, here to stay.
Bad dreams, bad dreams, go away.
Good dreams, good dreams, here to stay.
Bad dreams, bad dreams, go away.
(sobs)
Good dreams, good dreams, here to stay--stay.
♪
You have to do it three times for it--
For it to work. I know.
(bethany sobbing)
She is the reason...
We will still be giving
Seattle grace mercy west $25 million,
Not because of you or your ass kissing.
(crying)
(voice breaks) it's because of her--her.
(sobbing)
You have to understand...
You might lose it all.
♪ and all you want is... ♪
(sighs)
Mwah.
The chief still won't talk to me.
Oh, he will.
When did you become such an optimist?
(laughs) this is married, happy me.
Can we, uh...
Are you okay to...
Yes, we can. Mm.
But if you take that chance...
Are you healed? I'm healed. (giggles)
♪ everything ♪
♪ beautiful ♪
♪ and all you want is... ♪
If you invest wisely...
The payoff might just surprise you.
Oh! I'm awake.
I'm aw--um, see? I'm-- I'm totally awake.
I'm--there's hats and gifts
And--and--and doughnuts
And lingerie. (laughs)
(noisemaker squeaks softly)
Really? (blows air)
(laughs)
I love you.
♪ well, maybe what you want ♪
♪ is right here ♪
You do?
♪
I do.
♪ what you want is right here ♪
(callie) I love you, too.
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