Here in Mountjoy is the largest women's prison In Ireland.
Most female convicts end up here, in the Dochas Centre.
One of only two female jails in the country,
the other is in Limerick, a small wing of the male prison.
Christina, a 25 year old drug user, is serving time for robbery.
Ever heard the saying, the little devil's on one shoulder
and the angel's on the other.
He's screaming into your ear, do this, do that.
She's saying, no, don't do it. Don't do it.
If I'm on drugs I probably listen to this little prick.
We're all strung out on the DibDabs.
I need my methadone.
I was up there. There was no-one calling me.
Pregnant when sentenced to 2 years for drug offences,
this mother's baby was born whilst she was in Dochas.
I don't think 'til the day I die, will I never forgive myself for it.
I dread that his birth cert. is gonna say 397 North Circular Road.
That was long waited for.
After 18 months in Mountjoy, Jenny was released to emergency homeless accommodation.
Here, young fella!
I'll see you down in Temple Bar. Seeya later.
And they say I'm past it.
PRISON OFFICER: Are you okay Lisa?
LISA: No, I'm not okay.
When are you givin' me my tobacco? You're saying this to me all morning
When you calm down. I'M CALM!
Each prisoner spends her first night in Dochas here in the committal until,
before being allowed into the main prison houses.
A mother of three and a repeat offender, Christina has been
transferred back from Limerick Prison.
Howya.
At least I come bearing gifts. Coffee.
You were down in Limerick. Yeah.
And? I'm back in court on Thursday.
No bail on it like. And I got an address.
Did anyone confirm that address? Yeah.
Okay. Okay.
When do you reckon' I'll get out?
That'll depend on your and on your behaviour.
So, are you going to behave yourself? Yeah.
Good woman.
Smoke that up cos you're wanted downstairs.
Okay? Yeah. Thanks.
I've only 9 days left, Mr. Clarke.
Then you're out. I'm out, yeah.
Locked up for 8 months, Christina's sentence for robbery ends next week.
Look, the state of this.
Fuck sake like.
I'm really not happy to be back here.
I settled in Limerick and then I got brought back up.
Then I get settled up here and I got brought back down.
I snapped this morning, I did.
I hit the governor and everything.
The names I called her this morning.
Governor or no fuckin' governor.
Ah lads, I'm just sick of it.
The 9 days left is gonna drag like.
Before I came to jail, anyone that was in jail must've been a bad person.
I would've thought oh God, he didn't get long enough.
If you read some case or some article.
But come to the other side of it and do it.
I know they say if you can't do the time, don't do the crime.
Will we get ready to go for lunch?
Now a mother of six, this single mother's other five children
are being cared for by family, as she serves 2 years for drug offences.
A prisoner is permitted to keep her baby with her in jail
until the child turns one.
It's a lone parent you are totally in here.
It's even worse than a lone parent.
A lone parent, you've got family.
You've nobody in jail.
You dread then in case they broke out in a fight.
It hasn't happened but you're always worrying.
It's no environment for a child.
Yes, the best place for the child is with its mother, in any given circumstances.
And for the mother, I can't even fathom having to give away a newborn baby.
But in some aspects it has been a big benefit being in here.
I'm lucky enough. I can rest when I want to rest.
If he goes for a sleep I can go for a sleep.
Whereas when I'm at home I can't do any of that.
It's back to being mammy.
All going well, I'll be home soon.
I know it shouldn't leave any lasting memory on him
on his brain or anything like that but for my other kids, it will.
(SHOUTING)
So what was going on there? Is that normal?
Yeah. It wouldn't be normal.
It doesn't happen every day but it happens.
When I came in one of the governors said to me that
if they start in the dining hall, get out.
Get out immediately with the child.
Because it's dangerous.
I live in fear that they're going to break out into a fight
and chairs will come flying and how am I going to get him out.
I know they wouldn't deliberately set out to hurt the baby
but when something breaks out, there's always casualties.
My nerves are gone.
Last week, repeat offender Jenny, 38 years old and homeless,
was released after 18 months in prison.
Dublin City Council provided her with emergency B&B accommodation
but after 2 days outside, Jenny returned to prison.
I went to a bed and breakfast and there was two girls
and they were using in the B&B.
I'm on heroin since I was 21 years of age.
So I walked out of the B&B and I slept on the streets that night.
The streets are kinda dangerous, as you know.
Especially when you're on your own.
So I didn't sleep much that night.
After sleeping on the streets I came up here to sign on
and I was arrested at the gate.
So they had to check up and leave me here overnight.
When I was here overnight I got to thinking that I didn't want
to go back to the B&B.
Do you get afraid that it might not work out for you?
That you don't get the housing that you want?
Well this house is always open.
You know what I mean. They can't throw us out of here.
This is one house that will stay open.
I was talking to the governor today and she said Jenny, you're institutionalised.
I know I'm institutionalised.
It's nothing to be proud of.
I find it easier to cope in prison than it is in the outside world.
I think the easiest thing in the world is to come into jail.
The hardest thing in the world is to stay out of it.
That's what I reckon.
Christina Joyce!
Want the good news? Yeah.
Pack up. You're home. I'm outta here.
Although she is free today, other charges await Christina,
who has several court cases pending.
Good luck.
Keep the head down when you get out.
Mind yourself.
See yis later girls.
A repeat offender, Christina was first sent to a juvenile detention centre in her early teens.
I can't bring all that now.
I'll have to wait til Beatrix gets me a taxi tomorrow.
I'll just get you to sign this cos I can't hold them.
Will Beatrix pay for a taxi for you? She will, yeah.
I need to get clothes out, that's all.
Had you money in your account? I don't know.
Do you want to get a taxi now if you have money and you can bring them with you now?
I don't know where I'm going.
I don't even know my address.
Homeless, Christina relies on her community welfare officer
to source accommodation.
Where's Christina going?
Cedar House. What?!
Do you know where that is?
She got me Cedar House? Yeah, that's all there is.
Dublin City Council will provide her with a night by night hostel in the city centre.
I can't believe I'm going to Cedar House like.
Are you happy or not happy? I'm not happy.
I can't go in til 8 o'clock and I've to be out at 7.30 in the morning.
I'm obviously going to re-offend.
Don't say that to me going out the gate.
But it's only obvious I'm going to have a bigger chance of re-offending.
Well what's the plan for the next while?
Cedar House and..
You need to go and collect your cash first.
Yeah, it's here, isn't it. At the post office as well.
Christina, best of luck. Be good.
Gis a light. He good.
See you later.
Have you got a light? I don't. Sorry.
Is there a post office up here?
Entitled to a week's social welfare payment on release,
she must get to the post office before it closes.
I put my head through that window one day. Got charged.
A week's payment I only got and I'm due a clothing grant
so in the morning I'll ring Beatrix and get my clothing grant.
I'm after being in prison now since March.
Where do they send me? Cedar House.
They were meant to get me somewhere to live.
Not a hostel where I've to be out at 7.30am til 8 at night.
If I wasn't booked in, I wouldn't be allowed in till 10 at night.
So what am I doing?
I'm going out in the freezing cold.
I'm obviously going to start robbing.
I'm going to take drugs to keep me warm.
That's the way life is. That's what happens with life.
Eileen was released from Dochas 6 months ago.
Free but still subject to a suspended sentence,
Eileen must by court order engage with probation.
Not every day is the same.
Every day is different.
One day I might just relax for the whole day.
Other days I might be running from place to place.
Unemployed and homeless, she has been living in B&B accommodation.
I'm trying my hardest. I've never tried this hard.
I've never cared this much before ever.
I got 188 for jobseeker's allowance, which is shit like.
I've to pay 20 euro rent every week and then
feed yourself and then cigarettes and all.
It's hard to live on like. I can't live on it.
Sometimes I have to shoplift to..
To survive for the rest of the week.
The hardest thing to keep together would be staying away from the
people, places and things of the old life.
That's why I didn't want to be back in them places
where them people, places and things are.
I just hope one day I don't do something silly and slip up and
put myself back to square one again.
Because it can easily happen.
That's all the fuckin' money I have.
Cedar House provides emergency accommodation on a night by night
basis for men and women, who would otherwise be sleeping rough.
Five people become homeless every day in Dublin.
Up to half of the women sentenced to Dochas are homeless.
This side takes 50 and the other side takes 20 so at the moment
we have 50 booked in for this side and 11 for the other side.
So we've 61 so far out of a possible 70.
At 10 o'clock, whoever hasn't turned up, their beds go back
to the freephone and they're refilled by more people.
Obviously it's a crisis.
The 2 and a half years I'm here, we never have empty beds.
Cedar House provides support, key workers and basic meals
for its clients every night of the year, hoping over time
to source and secure accommodation for its frequent users.
This is it. This is your room?
Yeah, this is my room. That's my bed there.
I'll move that locker over for me so before I go
asleep I can have an aul' cup of tea.
Small little things like that matter.
You have to ring the freephone.
At the moment we've no beds.
Usually about 10 o'clock if you ring them.
Although Christina had a bed reserved for her in Cedar House,
she did not spend the night there.
Eventually her bed was given to someone else.
The women can attend classes in the prison school.
For the majority, it's their first time engaging with education since their early teens.
This is what you get when you're only learning how to type.
But you're doing very well.
With the help of a volunteer befriender, two of the prisoners,
Una and Marie, have decided to edit a Dochas newsletter.
This is for the prisoners and everything that's put into
the magazine is from themselves.
Well proud of that cover.
I still can't do a lot with it. But you're learning.
Irene is our mentor.
Her thoughts are all in this as well and she's bringing it together with us.
Thank you Marie.
Una is serving a 10 year sentence for manslaughter.
It's a bit of normality when the befrienders come in cos
they don't treat us we're just prisoners.
It's nice to have people treat you like you're a person.
It's very nice.
They don't judge you or anything like that.
Even listening to you moaning and going on when you have your bad days.
I don't know how they do it.
It's good that we're not part of the prison staff.
So it's a mutual ground where there's trust between us.
It's different and it's grand.
Part of the outside coming in.
It's hard to try and remember what that's like.
Margaret.
Hi, can I come in for a minute? Yeah.
Caught smuggling over 190,000 euro worth of cocaine into Ireland,
Margaret Alexander has served 9 months in Dochas.
Tomorrow she will be deported home to Trinidad and Tobago.
Get some sleep cos you need to be up early so we can have you ready.
Are you happy enough? Yeah.
Delighted? Yeah. I'm happy.
Good luck anyway if I don't see you before. Take care.
♪ In my life
♪ there's been heartache and pain.
< Hello.
< Are you on your way?
This is the last prison phone call. Whoo-hoo!
Hurry up. Drive quicker.
After 8 months in prison, today this mother can bring
her baby home to his brothers and sisters.
I'm always going to be known as the woman that had drugs.
Bye!
It'll be very hard. I'm from a very small parish.
I was a good citizen. I just made a mistake.
For my children, I want to show my children that no matter what,
I made a mistake but it doesn't mean my life is over.
I can succeed.
Something is wet.
Ah, one of the bottles is pissing out through the bag.
Of course I'm scared. I'm nervous.
I've been here now and I've only had to look after myself.
When I had the baby I only had to look after him.
Now I've to go home and be a parent again full-time
to a lot of children and it's daunting in some ways.
I often think how would I have survived being away from them
for an awful long sentence.
(TEARFUL) You'll be fine. Okay.
Go back to the gym now and you'll be grand.
My friend has been away from her daughter.
She had her daughter here with her.
She had to give her baby out at 12 months, out to her family.
I don't know how she did that.
How she stayed strong after doing that.
To continue doing her sentence. I think she's amazing.
Take care lads.
(CHRISTMAS MUSIC)
Just trying to get the feeling of Christmas in this kip.
Is this a tough time inside the prison?
Yeah, it's very depressing for most people.
For everybody it'd be depressing but like, mostly for parents.
Mothers, fathers, grandparents.
You just have to stay around people.
Some people like to be on their own.
For me personally, I'd have to keep around my friends cos they know
what I'm going through and they're mothers as well.
The hospital didn't give me big wheels so I'm just waiting here
for my friends and they'll bring me off for dinner.
By December, Christina who was released a month ago,
is back in prison on remand with bail.
Picked up two new charges.
I had bail on them.
I got my own bond in the high court the other day.
100 euro, my own bond.
Sign on. I've to give the guards urines and things like that.
But I'm not guilty.
Innocent until proven guilty. Simple.
Did the drugs become a problem again on the outside?
No, not really. I had two slips.
It wasn't heroin or anything. Snowblow like.
It was just the two times I took it, I tried to commit suicide.
One day I jumped in the Liffey.
The second time I went up to Arnott's, the fifth floor and I jumped off it.
I knew what was gonna happen.
They're just throwing you into a place where there's nothing but drugs, drink.
I need a place where I can be stable.
As the only exclusively female prison in Ireland,
all types of prisoners serve time in Dochas. Some as young as 18.
These women are some of the youngest here,
imprisoned for violent offences.
I was just drinking one night and a row broke out.
As you do when your friends are there, you kind of..
You do try to break it up but it just kinda goes different sometimes.
It just went a bit different that time.
Posh people that'd be watching this would be like, ah them scumbags.
But it's alright for them because everything was handed to them growin up.
We had to do stuff.
Did you finish school?
No, I left school when I was 13.
How come you left school so early?
Cos I was just always gettin' into trouble.
I didn't get on with the teachers.
I was always being suspended. Just wild.
I actually did my Junior Cert. but after that then I went into care.
Before I went into my Junior Cert. I was after smokin' a joint.
I honestly didn't have a clue and I was just laughing.
I just used to do what I wanted cos I just didn't want my ma..
I wasn't listening to anybody.
I just wanted to do what I wanted but this is what happened.
I do think like 21, maybe I'm locked up and I've been locked up before.
Twice I'm in here now.
But I do think that I'm still very mature because like
I've had to get my own places together, I've had to support myself from 15.
I had to do a lot for myself.
Still, that child is still inside me.
That child has never got to have a childhood.
The way everyone else would get it handed to them.
How does beating the crap out of somebody resolve that for you?
It doesn't resolve it for me.
It just releases a bit of stress.
Margaret Alexander is to be deported today, back to her
family in Trinidad and Tobago.
Have a great flight now.
We basically just have to search through all this stuff
to make sure they're not bringing out any pictures or anything or
any information or photos of other prisoners.
Or prison property.
Goodbye to you Miss Keenan. Goodbye to you Margaret.
Margaret is concerned about the drug dealers at home
for whom she was smuggling the cocaine.
As she is homeless.
Today she provided a relative's address and Gardai have approved her for release.
Here we go! Cos we're happy!
♪ Clap along if you feel like a room without a roof.
♪ Cos I'm happy.
Christina will be in front of the courts in a few months time.
Seeya later luv.
I'll be back.
So Nicole, when you look at Christina going out pretty much homeless
on a day like today, what's your thoughts?
She'll be back tomorrow.
If she knew she was getting out and she knew she had a bed there,
like a permanent bed there,
I'd say she'd stretch it out like.
There's no point coming back.
But when she has to walk around the streets all day in the
lashings of rain and then if she has a habit and she has to feed it
and then her money goes..
Do ya know what I mean.
I'd say she's no other choice but to come back in here.
So how many years have you been homeless for?
I've been in residential units, HSE homes and all that, since 15.
Then when you turn 18, they just forget about you.
When you turn 18 it all stops.
You're on your own then.
I'm only 21 years of age like.
And I'm poxy sitting in Mountjoy.
Not even sittin'. Standin' in the rain.
(ARGUING)
I'll miss you.
I know you will.
We had a great Christmas Day together, hadn't we.
We did, yeah.
This time stay out.
Having spent Christmas in Dochas, Jenny's sentence comes to an end tomorrow.
She has been secured apartment accommodation in a project called Tus Nua.
Is this everything? Yeah.
Where's all your clothes?
So you're finished your sentence tomorrow. Yeah.
What makes you think that?
You just need to stay away from the drink, isn't that it.
Good luck Jenny.
We won't be seeing you again.
But it's not gonna be. Tus Nua is going to be your new home.
Good luck Jenny.
Jenny's new home is a facility run by Depaul in Dublin City.
Tus Nua is dedicated solely to homeless women coming out of prison.
The women, who contribute minimal rent, are supported by
key workers and councillors to try and rebuild their lives in the community.
This is my room.
It's lovely, isn't it.
I have to get a box for the TV.
It's cosy.
It's much nicer than the B&B.
And it's a little bit nicer than Dochas as well, isn't it.
Yeah. I have a cooker and a fridge.
If Governor McMahon could se me now she'd be thrilled.
She'd say my Jenny, look at her.
Yeah, I'm thrilled with it.
It's comfortable.
I've got a fridge too.
It's grand. It feels homely.
I know for definite my mother is up in heaven smiling down.
The first few weeks out of prison are the most challenging.
House rules apply.
No drink or drugs are allowed and Jenny must obey a curfew.
For the week I have to be in at 8 o'clock,
which is a sensible hour. I can't complain about that.
But I can be in after the week is up at 12 o'clock.
What I do is put my money aside, my welfare.
Whatever I get, buy my food out of it.
So the lady that she'll help me get a post office book.
So I can save.
That's what I want to do. Save a few pound.
I have to save up 2,000 pound to get my father's headstone.
Still kinda nervous.
Nervous that I'll fuck up.
The service can accommodate up to 6 women at a time.
I wouldn't say I'm lucky.
I'm just delighted that I got this break that I needed
because if I hadn't, I'd have been dead by now.
A drug user most of her adult life, a mother of two,
both her children are in care.
This woman was released from Dochas a month ago.
Thank God I'm blessed with the key worker I have.
She's great. She's one in a million.
She keeps at you and at you and that's what I need.
Jackie's fairly chaotic when she is using.
She usually ends up in hospital or in an ambulance or unconscious
or being attacked or assaulted in a fight.
I am in fear for her safety if she doesn't stop doing what she's doing.
She's going to end up in worse places with worse people and
and it's going to end up bad.
I know I'm saying I do but I'm still going out and I'm still saying that
I know I that I don't understand why I do that.
I really don't understand why.
I say I want to see my kids but yet I'll still go down the road
and I'll still take tablets.
But you're taking them because you're blocking stuff out.
You're taking it because the whole ritual of scoring as well.
It's not just getting stoned.
Then when you get stoned you get disgusted with yourself
and you get guilt and all that.
But it's the ritual of scoring.
You're addicted to getting into town and getting that,
whether it's a tablet, whether it's heroin, whatever.
So this has to stop.
The whole pattern has to stop.
It has to stop. I know it does.
Then because of your age, you're 36,
by the time you're 40 this will no longer be cute.
By the time you're 45 it'll be really a pain in the arse.
As you get older, it gets harder and harder and harder.
That's why I want you to start working now.
There's no point putting it off, tomorrow, tomorrow.
So that's it.
(SIREN)
7 months out of prison, Eileen is in trouble.
I got a letter from a guard.
He knocked yesterday morning.
It has me very nervous.
It's an order to revoke my bail.
A notice of hearing and an application for an order
revoking an order suspending a sentence of imprisonment.
Thank you very much.
Eileen spent 6 months in prison for robbery but
also received a 2 year suspended sentence.
Out of prison on a bond, she was meant to engage with the probation services.
The reason why I didn't turn up to probation.
There's no excuse for it.
I can't say why I didn't turn up.
I didn't turn up to probation because I was angry at myself
cos I thought..
I just thought they're after lying to me. Like..
There's no excuse basically for me not going to probation.
I should've went.
I realise that and I think I'm after realising that a little too late.
Even though I have been in contact with them and I am trying,
I still think it might be too late now.
What's the point in sending me back to prison for 2 years,
to let me out in 2 years to put me back to where I was 7 months ago.
It doesn't make sense.
That is just..
I just don't understand it. I really, really don't.
They could give me a chance to see probation and I will see them
and let me progress further than where I am from here.
Cos I've got no new charges.
I've stayed out of trouble.
I've done as much as I can to do my best.
In the situation I was given, I done my best.
I'm stunned and I don't know what to do.
Eileen calls to her probation officer, 7 months late.
But there's nothing they can do now.
Tomorrow Eileen must appear at the criminal court and face the judge.
Christina is back in prison, only 2 days after leaving on bail.
She handed herself back in.
The prison believes that she left and returned on purpose,
solely to smuggle drugs in.
I'm very slow to let you out.
If I had drugs I'd be on them now.
You were out of it when you came here.
I wasn't out if it. I remember everything.
I'm not saying you don't remember it. You were under the influence.
I wasn't.
There's a few different ways that drugs come into prison.
Firstly thrown over the wall.
The other would be on visits.
Probably the most common way that drugs come in are when women either
return from periods of temporary release or if they hand
themselves back into custody.
I got an internal last night.
If I knew I was going for an internal I'd be hiding something in the room.
Came back up, my room was spun.
I have no drugs, Miss O'Connor.
This is my first time I can actually say I don't have drugs.
But you're acknowledging you did bring in drugs before.
No, I never brought..
You said it's the first time I can say I have no drugs.
Yeah, this is the first time I can say genuinely I've no drugs.
Other times yeah, I probably did.
But I didn't this time.
Any of the women that go out on periods of temporary release
and bring back drugs, many of them are put under pressure
by other women here to bring back drugs.
I suppose the question is not how many women get out
and bring back drugs.
The question is how many women get out and don't bring back drugs.
Because as I said, they're under a tremendous amount of pressure.
The governor now has to decide whether to allow Christina back into the yard,
whilst possibly in the possession of drugs.
This decision has to be made today.
She's in there 3 days at this stage.
We either put her under rule 62 or we let her out.
In there was searched. Yeah.
That's the only thing.
Is it that important to her to keep what she has.
It'll tell the tale too.
If we believe her on this and it turns out that she didn't
tell the truth, it's something we can use talking to her again.
I bet you I'll have 100 visitors.
You know my friends.
I bet you I'll have 100 visitors.
They'll all think I've drugs.
I know there's a popular perception that it suits the prisons
when people take drugs. Not at all.
It's much, much calmer when there are no drugs, tablets, alcohol.
Laura!
I'm here!
These drugs change people's personalities.
They become more aggressive.
So it's much handier without the drugs.
I need my blue mattress from next door.
Right. See yis later.
After less than a week in Tus Nua, Jenny picked up new charges and is back in prison.
I know people probably say Jenny went to Tus Nua and all this.
Tus Nua wasn't for me at all.
People out of their gimps in it.
It's not a life being on drugs.
I'll be honest with you, the woman turned around to me.
She called me aside. She asked me was I working.
I said yeah, I'm going over the Cap. I'm going down to Cap.
No she said. Do you work.
What kind of question is that to ask someone. Do you work.
What do you mean by work Jenny?
Soliciting. Soliciting.
I told her I wasn't that hard up for her establishment.
I told her I'd go back to my own establishment instead of living with her.
I just don't like them social workers. I hate them.
Why?
I was with someone for 6 years. He used to hit me.
I had two kids.
I was not even an hour having my child in the hospital
and then socials walked in, slapped a court order in my face
and told me that my children would be took off me.
I had to walk out of the hospital, leave me child in a cot.
It was hard.
What age were you when that happened? 17.
I wasn't in the wrong.
I was with someone that I thought I loved.
But he was just an alcoholic. He kept beating me.
They were afraid. If he was capable of hitting me, what would he do to the kids.
It's hard when the social workers said do you want an access visit
or do you want to see them.
I feel bad for saying no but I just can't sit in a room
and see them going with their family and not going with them.
I feel a stranger to them.
Sometimes I just let them go.
They're happy, they don't know me.
I don't want them to know me.
I'll get them back some day. Hopefully.
Has any of yis got a smoke?
Today in court, Eileen's 2 year suspended sentence was activated.
I am still in shock. I am.
What was the point in putting me back here?
What did she even give me?
I couldn't even hear her, I couldn't.
Order that the accused serves 17 months of the suspended part
of the sentence imposed on 22nd March, 2013.
We'll get you in now anyway.
Please give me a cigarette.
For failing to engage with the probation service,
she will now serve up to 17 months in prison.
Eileen go. I'm not going anywhere.
Eileen. I'm not going anywhere.
Eileen.
Eileen, go now. It's not making it any easier.
I don't care.
There'll be no cigarettes sent in.
Well you won't send them. I want my phone numbers!
I'll tell them to keep the phone. Fuck you too.
I want my phone.
I'm not waiting months for the phone to go dead
for yis to tell me that.
It's March.
Christina still awaits sentencing.
On remand since December, her cases will not be heard until May.
Last night Christina spent the night in the health unit.
It's not like I cut myself looking for pity.
I cut myself to get the hurt out.
If I don't, it just stays there.
It's like my heart is just in pain, so much pain that I can't explain.
The only way to take the pain from here is to put the pain here.
Don't get me wrong, I can do jail. I don't give a fuck about jail.
I don't actually care. Why don't you care?
Because I've no life out there to care about.
Why have you decided to show everybody what your life is like?
Because I hope it can help people that are young, to look at me and say Jesus.
Like if they're smoking hash and things, to stop it straight away.
I don't care what they say. I won't be doing it.
I won't go takin' heroin. I won't do this.
I said all that.
If you asked every prisoner in here, we all said.
Look today. We're all nearly strung out.
If we're to come back to you in say 5 years time,
where will I find you?
You mightn't.
If my life continues like this, you won't.
You know you're the only one who can really change your life?
I'm trying.
I'm actually trying this time.
If I just get that start.
If it has to be going through treatment..
If I just get that little kick start, I know I'll do it.
I have the head to do it.
I know I will do it.
Eileen is still in Dochas.
If suitable housing is secured for her, she may be released before Christmas.
Una, who was sentenced to 10 years in prison,
is not due for release until 2018.
Jenny was released from Dochas again last April but
returned in mid-May and is not due for release until Summer 2015.
Naughty but nice.
I don't know what I look like. The sweat's running out of me.
Last May, Christina was sentenced to 2 years in prison.
She is not due for release until November 2015.
♪ Living rough.
♪ Stone cold bed.
♪ Park bench to rest my head.
♪ I'm just trying to get along.
♪ So don't you point your finger at me.
♪ Cos you don't feel what I feel.
♪ Life's not easy when you live it alone.
♪ I'm just tryin' to get along.
: Tracey Carr, RTE 2014.