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♪ Yeah
♪ Thinking what a wonderful world
♪ Ooh-ooh
♪ And I'm watching as the colours light the earth
♪ Thinking what a wonderful world
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♪ Thinking what a wonderful world
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Neil? Neil?
Neil!
Sorry. Sorry. I tried. She wouldn't take it.
I've been up four times with her in the night.
I know, I know, I maybe think the milk was warmer...
(Sighs)
I think when I gave birth to Emily...
...my libido was on the other end of the cord.
Cos it's completely bloody vanished.
I haven't felt aroused or wanted sex since the day I had her.
Hi, Chris, I'm trying to get in touch with you.
Ring me or text me as soon as you get this message, please.
I don't think it would bother me if Neil took a lover.
No, I better delete that.
If I were Neil, I'd leave me, find someone else.
In fact, he's probably planning to do exactly that.
Except it's his flat, so he'd have to ask me to leave,
then I wouldn't have anywhere to live.
Oh, Simon! He smells like he's shat for England.
(Sniffs) Hello, darling, come on, up you...
Oh.
Oh, Si, it's all coming out the side of his nappy!
Ooh. Good boy. Come on.
Oh.
Breakfast.
Lovely.
- Who are you writing to? - Just doing my blog.
I can't even be bothered to speak to him sometimes.
Why don't you get a couple of hours' kip while she's asleep?
I will do, just soon as I've finished this.
I know I'm being horrible, but I just...can't go there.
Besides, I stink of sweat and stale milk.
Sometimes, I look down at this vulnerable little being,
who relies on me for her very existence.
When I'm breast-feeding
and her face is a picture of sleepy milk bliss...
...my heart is full of love for her.
And, other times, usually on the third or fourth time she screams
for milk in the night, I think, "You little brat, I hate you."
There we go, darling. There we go. Look at that.
- (Knock at door) - Get that for me, will you?
- Come on. Come on. - Sam, take over from me.
That's it, baby.
Come on, Sam, help your mam out.
Oh, you all right?
- Hiya. - Oh, hiya, love.
Now he's had his breakfast and there is a clean change
and four nappies in the bag.
OK. I'm going to see Rick, so my mam'll be looking after him.
Great, he loves your mam.
I'll be here for when you pick him up, though.
All right, darling, you be a good boy for Diane.
- Bye-bye. - See you later.
See you.
Come on, then, darling. One more.
She's wet her pants and drawn on my homework.
Her mam left clean pants in the bag by the bottom of the stairs.
I'll have a look later, see what I can do with your homework.
Come on, darling.
KIM: I used to have conversations with friends.
We talked about stuff other than babies
and we drank wine, got pissed.
Oh, my God, I've forgotten how good it is to be pissed!
I think the boiler's completely knackered this time.
Oh, for goodness' sake. We're gonna have to ring the landlord.
OK.
There you g...
(Baby gurgles)
You little...
You're not supposed to flick it in Mummy's face.
Are you, darling? That's not very nice, is it?
Now Mummy's going to have to wash her hair again.
Ooh, Sonny.
KIM: What I don't understand,
what is totally and utterly beyond me,
is why anybody in their right mind has another baby.
They either have to be insane or have a chronic case of amnesia.
I think you have two godmothers
and one godfather, if it's a girl.
Oh, right, so it's quite strict, then?
Yeah, Kim's the main godmother, though.
We're going to have a Namkaran for Amber.
It's like a naming ceremony.
It really should have happened on the 12th day after her birth.
It's all right, Mum, as long as it's before her first birthday.
Who told you that?
- I don't know. - The same person who told you
you can't get pregnant when you're breast-feeding, probably.
I'm not gonna open my mouth, cos whatever I say will be wrong.
Er... yeah. What's this?
- My sons. - You hope.
You're really leaving it far too late for her Namkaran.
I think it must be lovely having twins.
Oh, yeah, but it's so uncomfortable.
I nearly live here, honestly, I get clinic appointments,
like, every other week.
I had a water infection, so I've had to come
and have it checked again.
Anyway, it'll be nice to get it all over and done with together.
They'll have each other to grow up with
and we'll get all t'nappies finished together.
- You'll be changing 'em. - I do already.
That's true.
So t'christening's at ten o'clock?
At St Margaret's, where my mam and dad got married.
I knew it were you. You're Dinah Hutchinson's daughter.
Yeah. Why?
I were a bridesmaid at your mam's wedding.
The last time I saw you, you must have been nine, ten.
You haven't changed at all.
I went to school with your mam, we were best friends.
How is she?
She died two year ago of breast cancer.
Oh, God, no.
I'm sorry, that's terrible.
(Sighs) I kept thinking about her.
I didn't know how to get in touch or where she was.
I'm so sorry. Shit, that's terrible. I feel awful now.
It... It's all right.
God, you're young to be having a baby.
- It's my second. - Oh, my God!
I've already got a daughter called Dinah after my mam.
Aw, that's lovely.
Are you having a baby?
Me? Jesus, no.
- God, am I that fat? - No.
- Sorry, I didn't mean... - No, no, no.
My daughter Shelly is a surrogate
for two lads I clean for.
Mum!
I'm just renting out my womb.
10k for delivering a healthy baby.
- Right. - What did she just say?
Yeah. It's nice to help out
and I get all my pay-day loans sorted in one go.
Barking mad, but she won't be told.
I'm just off to t'lav. Watch my bag.
Again?
'Scuse.
Jasmin, would you like to come through?
- Oh, you can't all come. - I can. I want to ask...
- Devan said I could... - No, he's coming in with me.
Stay here and look after Amber.
Er... don't you want to know what sex they are?
Oh, shit, I forgot about that!
Take care.
You're next in room two with Geraldine, sweetheart.
If I'm not here later, I'll see you tomorrow.
- Yeah. Definitely. - Take care.
Sorry about my mam, I hope she didn't upset you.
No. I think I recognise her.
Did she used to have blonde hair?
She's been every colour you can think of.
She had blonde hair before she broke up with my dad
and then she went black and spiky.
And then, when she came back from Ibiza,
she'd gone red and had three tattoos.
She's calmed down a bit now, though.
I'd better go.
(Gurgles)
(Whispers) Ssh. Hello.
Hello.
Come on.
- Can you see what sex they are? - You're 25 weeks?
Yeah.
- Are they boys? - You didn't want to know.
He's been driving me mad for the past two weeks. I've given in.
- Are you all right? - Yeah, just a bit sore.
Can you keep very still? And we can get a better look at them.
Is there something wrong?
She's looking to see if they've got willies or not.
Hey, maybe it's one of each.
Don't you listen to anything anyone tells you?
They're identical, you div, they're either boys or girls.
Was there any discordance last time?
There was a discrepancy in the amniotic-fluid measurements.
But it wasn't that bad. Absent EDF.
I think we should let Dr Stone have a look.
Why? What is it?
One of the twins looks a bit bigger than the other.
We just need to check that everything's all right. OK?
- (Baby cries) - Shelly! Oh, my God!
Someone, help me! Shelly!
It's a baby! I found a baby in the toilet!
SHELLY: You've found a baby?
Oh, my God! It's still attached...
- Oh, my God. ...to the thing.
Oh, God, it was crying in the next cubicle.
Looks like it's just been born.
- Look how little it is. - Someone left it in t'toilets?
Emergency! Neo-natal to reception.
A load of paper towels on the floor.
I just... I couldn't believe what I were seeing at first.
- Jesus, I feel really shaky. - Sit down, Mam, sit down.
MAN: Sit down.
Get us my e-ciggie out of my bag, front pocket.
You can't smoke that in here. I'm sorry.
God, just to calm my nerves.
Newborn found in the toilet. Placenta's still attached.
Don't know the gestation, but it certainly looks prem.
I'd say it was literally born a couple of hours ago.
What were all that gunk on its head?
- Oh, God. - They're born with it.
The midwives usually wipe it off when they're born.
All right? Got it?
(Baby cries)
Will I... Will I get my coat back?
As soon as they've cleaned him up and got him in an incubator.
I wouldn't bother, it's just we're on the bus
and it looks like rain...
Oh, poor little thing.
- It's quite a shock, in't it? - My whole body's shaking.
Last year, we had a full-term left with a note in a nappy bag.
This one's definitely prem. The mother'll need some attention.
I'm gonna have to report this to the police.
So would you mind hanging about, lovely?
No, I'm here with our Shelly, she's got to see t'consultant.
- (Buzzer) - Can I get a tea?
Yeah, of course, I'll put the kettle on.
- Helen Osbourne. - Yes?
- Could you go to room two? - Thank you.
I'll see you in a couple of weeks.
- Tomorrow. - Oh, yeah, I was forgetting.
Listen, you remember to drink plenty of water, Rosie.
- I'll see you later. Bye. - Ta-ra.
It's Dinah's christening tomorrow,
at ten o'clock at St Margaret's.
Oh, right, lovely.
You can both come, if you like.
Oh, cheers, love, that's really nice of you to invite us.
I've just got to go and have a ciggie.
I'll walk with you.
(Baby gurgles)
I think she's going to be walking soon.
Is that early or? I don't know anything about kids.
Jude didn't even attempt to walk until he was, like, 16 months.
Hiya, love.
Well?
Four Bs.
Oh, fantastic. Brilliant.
Oh, and with a baby, as well. I'm so proud of you, love.
- Does Rosie know? - No. Erm...
Her phone's turned off, so she must still be at the hospital.
You'll have to decide what subjects to take for A level.
I see it's sold, then.
Yeah, well, they've agreed a price
and they want to move pretty quick, so...
So, er... what are we gonna do now?
You've not found anywhere you like yet.
Are we gonna rent somewhere or?
Yeah, well, we wanted to talk to you about that.
Yeah, we just thought we'd, erm...
hold off for a bit and go travelling, didn't we?
Right. And what about me and Rosie, where are we gonna live?
Well, it's... It's not really our problem, Jude, is it?
- I don't understand. - She didn't mean that.
If we can't provide accommodation, then the council
are gonna have to kick in and give you somewhere to live.
Especially with Dinah and Rosie being pregnant.
And what if they don't?
Well, they're not gonna see you on the streets, are they, love?
Of course not. And you can always stay
with your dad and Kim till we get back.
Oh.
(Groans)
Oh, s...
Oh, that's horrible.
Oh, God. That's...
- Uhh. - Are you all right?
How come everybody else has lost their baby weight?
Vicky, Roanna, Diane. There's only me.
Stop it, will you? You look great.
- I look frumpy and bloated. - No, you don't.
I must be two sizes bigger than I was before.
I'm... I'm not going to this christening.
You've got to, you're the godmother.
She'll have to pick another one.
I don't want to see anyone looking like this.
Least of all Susie.
What's that mean?
Nothing, I just don't want her to see me looking a mess.
Well, you don't look a mess and you've got to face her sometime.
Seeing as I've got the day off,
why don't I look after Emily and you go into town?
Meet a friend. Buy yourself something new.
My treat.
- She'll scream the whole time. - No, she won't.
Look, ring Roanna.
You can express some milk
and I'll give her some of that butternut mush.
She'll just spit it out again.
Kim, she's got to start on solids some time.
Otherwise, you'll be tied to her forever.
No, I don't think I made a mistake.
I miss Susie, as a friend, and...
...I feel really bad about what happened.
But I don't want to be with her, sexually.
The truth is, I don't want to be with anyone, sexually.
Right.
I look at Neil and I can... I can see he's attractive.
- He's really handsome. - Yeah, he is.
And I love him.
Which reminds me, I'd better ring him.
But I've just... I've no energy.
I'd rather go to sleep, watch telly
or have a cup of tea and a chocolate Hobnob.
- So, how long's it been? - Well, we did it...
three times before I had Emily.
And after?
We haven't.
What?
You haven't had sex for nine months?
Nearly ten, actually. That's really bad, isn't it?
Yeah, yeah, that's bad. I've been reading your blog,
but I didn't realise it was as bad as that.
Sometimes, I want it when he's not there, when he's at work.
Hi. Hiya.
Yeah. Is she all right?
Oh, Neil, she'll never sleep tonight.
Have... Have you checked she's breathing?
Well, will you check for me, please?
The health visitor says I have to get her in a routine.
Sonny's been sleeping through since he was three months.
- Oh, don't tell me that. - Sorry.
I bet you and Simon are at it all the time.
- Not all the time, but... - It's official. I'm a freak.
No, you're not. Stop it.
Listen, we've got our own problems.
We're living in this damp, cold cottage.
You could have stayed with his parents till your settlement...
No, we couldn't, believe me. That's another story.
Why? Cos you were bonking all the time?
I've thought about going to the doctor
or getting something herbal I saw online,
but I can't while I'm breast-f...
Hiya. Yeah. Oh, great.
Yeah, well, erm... make sure she has all my milk
before you start her on the squash.
OK. I won't be long. I love you, too.
Well, he's a saint, isn't he?
- Does he ever read your blog? - Oh, God, no!
Well, he never says anything, if he does.
Well, I think you should wean her off the breast and then...
No. No. I want to keep feeding her for as long as I can.
- It's better for her. - No. Listen, you're feeding her
six or seven times a day, then two or three times at night.
No. No wonder you're knackered. You're a bloody milking machine.
- What about you? - I don't matter.
Yes, you do matter, Kim. You do matter and so does Neil.
I've read your blog and it's as though you've lost yourself.
It's mental this is the first time
you've left her with anybody - he's her biological father.
I know.
You've become defined by motherhood, sweetheart.
You've forgotten who you are.
Hm?
Look.
They've got some great coats.
But you've been watching me all the way through, loads of scans.
Sometimes, it can just happen out of the blue.
One twin suddenly gets bigger than the other
and that's why we need to keep a close eye
on mothers expecting monochorionic twins.
What does mono... whatever... mean?
It means the babies each have their own amniotic sac,
but they share a placenta.
But they all catch up in the end.
I mean, Jasmin's little sister was only five pounds
when she was born, but now she's ten stone four.
I don't see what all the fuss is about.
Sorry to keep you waiting.
I just wanted to have a word with my colleague.
Can I just say? I'm Amita
and you've frightened my daughter to death.
You made it sound like it were dead serious
and one of the twins could die.
Well, I'm sorry if I alarmed you,
but, unfortunately, that is the situation.
- Told you. - I... I don't understand.
You know that one of your twins is bigger than the other?
What's the problem with that?
Well, let me show you.
For some reason, the placenta has developed blood vessels
that are allowing the blood to flow from one of your twins,
let's call him or her "the donor",
the smaller one,
to the other twin, let's call him or her "the recipient",
the larger one.
Left untreated, almost certainly one of your twins will die.
There must be something you can do.
There is something.
I have to warn you, this is a pioneering new treatment.
It's invasive and therefore not without considerable risks.
DEVAN: What kind of risks? - OK. Let me explain.
In order to treat the problem,
we need to try and stop the flow of blood
from one twin to the other.
That means, blocking the vessels in the placenta
that are causing the problem.
How are you gonna do that when it's in my womb?
We insert a special telescope to see the placenta
and then we use a tiny laser to block the blood vessels.
DEVAN: Will that...
Will it hurt?
No. We use a spinal anaesthetic,
but putting anything inside the womb carries a risk of infection
and it could cause pre-term labour...
...and even sudden foetal death.
There is a chance you could lose both babies.
So, what's gonna happen now?
The baby's being checked over by the neonatal team, then it will
either stay here or be handed over to Social Services.
Cos I'd like to know.
Oh, I'm sure if you ring the hospital, they'll tell you.
Right. Well, is there anything else?
No, we've got your statement and we'll try and track down
this young woman who was leaving t'toilets as you were entering.
She were more of a girl than a woman.
Great.
Are we going now, Mam? I feel like we've been here all day.
I just wondered if maybe I could have a peek at him
now they've cleaned him up.
God, what for?
I'm bloody starving.
If you want me to come round tonight, talk it through,
I can try and explain it a bit more.
(Voice echoes) I'll ring you, Vicky.
Just need to get home.
VICKY: I think Dr Stone would like to keep a close eye on her.
- I'll bring her back Monday. - We're all just a bit shocked.
(Baby cries)
I thought about putting the twins in separate bedrooms,
so they wouldn't wake each other up, but Zack'd wake our Sam up.
That wouldn't be fair on him cos he's got school in the morning.
And it's already tough for them, they have to walk themselves.
I can't get myself and the twins ready on time.
I hope you tell 'em not to talk to anybody.
Yeah. Of course I do.
Ellie's started plucking her eyebrows.
I was looking at her thinking she looked weird
and then I realised what it was, so... Anyway, she got told off.
It's probably just cos... cos neither of us are there.
I'm stuck in here. You're working.
I had to do summat, Rick. They were gonna take the house.
I'm not blaming you.
It's my fault we're in this situation, I know that.
It's just...
Well, I don't want to talk about it.
So, er...
How are things with you?
Me?
I'm having a fantastic time.
Well...
- It's not long now. - Yeah. Not long.
Hey, you, er... You'd better be going.
Hello. Hello.
I'm home!
Oh, sorry, I'm a bit longer than I thought. How's she been?
Wow, you look great.
Aw, did you miss me, treasure-pie?
Did you think I'd left you for ever and ever?
She's been fantastic, never even whimpered once.
Really?
Well, that's amazing.
Yeah, she's been very happy with her daddy, haven't you?
- You've got make-up on. - Yeah, yeah.
One of the girls on the counters did it for me, for free.
I bought a load of stuff.
This and er... the shoes.
- What do you think? - You look amazing.
You've got legs.
And a waist. I've got this thing on that pulls you in.
I can hardly breathe, but it does the trick.
Oh... My boobs are about to explode.
Well, she drank all your milk and ate your squash.
All of it?
- There was enough for two days. - I know.
- She screamed for some more. - Wow.
That's really good.
I'll have to express, then.
Then we went to the supermarket and we got a couple of steaks,
some spinach and a nice bottle of wine for supper.
Wine? I've forgotten what that tastes like.
Stopped off in the park on the way back.
She's completely knackered now,
but I tried to keep her awake so she'll sleep tonight.
That way... we could have a bit of Mummy and Daddy time.
I'll just take this lot off, so they're nice for tomorrow.
- No, don't. You look fantastic. - I wouldn't be able to eat
and my feet are killing me.
(Text alert)
Oh, I've got a message from Diane.
- Oh, God. - What is it?
There's something's wrong with Jasmin's pregnancy.
(Emily gurgles)
(Text alert)
(Amber cries)
Ring and tell 'em you're not coming in tonight.
We've got an emergency.
- But we're short-staffed, Jas. - Dev, this is serious!
There you go, drink that.
- What is it? - It's a high-protein drink.
Your father's been on the internet and it says
TTTS can make mothers malnourished.
What's TTTS?
Twin to Twin Transfusion Syndrome.
Nutrition is very important and often overlooked.
Well, I eat well, don't I, Dev?
Yeah. Yeah, love, you do, but try... try drinking it.
Ice cream and green olives? It's not very good for the babies.
Why do I crave it, then?
- It's not my fault. - Nobody's blaming you, babe.
- I'm only trying to be helpful. - It's bad enough for her.
It's not just about Jasmin. We should all be doing
everything we can to help our poor little babies.
Mum, Mum, please, you're not helping.
Well, if that's how you feel, I'll go home.
I'm sorry. I didn't mean it. I know... I know you're upset.
We're all upset, I'm upset.
- Right. - Your dad's upset.
Look, we really appreciate everything you've both done,
helping out with Amber.
You can't be trusted to look after the baby.
I forgot her once, Mum, when she was just born.
I left her in the van for five minutes...
She could have overheated, died.
Yes. I know that now. I just wasn't used to being a dad.
If Social Services are confident
I know how to look after my own daughter, why...
- (Doorbell) - I'll get it.
It is my fault.
- Stop it. Don't be ridiculous. - No, it isn't.
I must be a horrible person for this to happen.
Don't be so silly. Oh, love.
Jas? Hey, Jas, look who's come to see you.
- Hiya. - Hiya.
What are you lot doing here?
I'm sorry. I only told Diane, but, well...
Vicky? You'd no right to do that, not without asking me.
- I should have... - Oh, it's not her fault.
I could see she were upset, so I wangled it out of her.
I knew I shouldn't have said anything.
And Diane texted me.
We just want you to know we're here for you.
I know.
I'm sorry.
(Chokes back tears)
I have to have this stupid operation
or one of my babies is gonna die.
Oh, my God, I'm so sorry, that's horrible.
Would anyone like a cup of tea or something to eat?
- No, thanks. - I've only got an hour.
I've been to see Rick. My mum's had the kids.
See? We come in handy, sometimes.
DIANE: Oh, I couldn't have managed without her.
It's not long till he's out now, is it?
All being well. I keep thinking summat's gonna go wrong.
I'll have a cuppa, thanks.
So, are... Are you gonna have the treatment?
I don't know. We've got till Monday to decide.
- Don't know. - It's not a proper operation.
It's a laser beam that zaps the blood vessels in the placenta.
Don't like the idea of any laser zapping anywhere near my babies.
And she said it was dangerous and invasive.
VICKY: She has to tell you that.
They have to tell you the worst.
They did that with me, with Hope. Look at her now.
Yeah, she's a bit slower than Zack,
but she's just like any normal baby.
What did I say? They all catch up in the end.
You don't have to have any kind of treatment.
I think she does.
It might not be the smallest twin that's at risk.
It's often the bigger one.
It makes you really thankful your own baby is all right.
I don't think I could cope, if Emily got ill or...
It's amazing, though, you do.
You find the strength from somewhere.
Honestly, I think I'd freak out.
I left her for the first time today with Neil.
For the first time?
I was a nervous wreck, I thought she'd be screaming
or she'd choke or something, but...
- He was great with her. - I bet he was.
She didn't seem to miss me, at all.
I don't know whether to be happy or sad about that.
Oh, it's gonna be weird seeing Susie at this christening.
We haven't seen each other since we split up.
Yeah.
I know what you mean.
It's gonna be weird when Rick comes back.
It's been so long since we've been together... properly.
Me and Neil are... We're getting on great,
but there's nothing physical between us.
Really?
It's not his fault. It's me.
I've written about it on my blog.
Oh, I'm sorry. I haven't read it.
I barely have time to breathe, these days.
Look, I've got to get back. My mum'll be tearing her hair out.
Go on. Get in there, girl, and rip his clothes off.
- OK. - (Giggles)
Oh, I didn't know you were back.
- Sorry. I'll let you... - I thought you were asleep...
I didn't want to wake you.
- Has she been all right? - Yeah.
Yeah. Perfect.
She fell asleep two minutes after you left.
Are Jasmin and Dev all right?
Not really, there's a problem with the placenta
feeding both babies, they're both in a bit of a state.
I'll give Dev a ring tomorrow.
Shall I make us a nightcap?
Er...
Ah, no, I think I'll just go straight to bed.
I'm shattered.
Sorry. Big day tomorrow.
- Do you know what... - I've been thinking.
Sorry. Go on.
I was just gonna say...
Do you want me to sleep in the spare bed?
No.
Why would you do that?
I just thought maybe you'd get a better night's sleep.
You know, if Emily wakes up, then I'm right next to her.
Is that what you want to do?
Not really, no.
Just...
Just, sometimes, it's... it's difficult for me.
You know?
(Sighs)
I won't be able to sleep.
(Sighs) I'm usually at the restaurant now.
It's the only time we get on our own, in bed.
(Knock at door)
Devan, make sure she's lying on her left side!
- Oh, for God's sake! - Yeah, all right, Mum.
It don't say anything about that in here.
I don't know why she don't just go home.
Simon had to tell his mam to stop coming round to the cottage
as much, cos it was stressing Roanna out.
My mum won't go home if your mum's here.
My mum definitely won't go home.
She's asked my dad to bring some more clothes over.
They think we need 'em.
I suppose we do now.
Uncle Ranjid was well pissed off with me not coming in tonight.
Did you tell him we've got to decide about the massive thing?
Yeah, I did, but he said he can't rely on me any more.
(Tuts)
- Tell your dad to talk to him. - I will.
He was gonna help me get a restaurant off the ground.
I don't suppose that's gonna happen now.
How can you be even thinking about work
and bloody restaurants?
We've got to make the biggest decision of our lives, Dev.
I'm sorry.
I'm sorry, I didn't hear her.
That's cos she slept right through. Didn't you, darling?
That's amazing.
- Good girl. The first time. - Yeah, I don't know what
- you gave her, but it worked. - Just the butternut squash.
Oh, and some mashed-up pear with toast fingers.
(Emily cries)
Pear and toast? You didn't tell me.
- Do I have to? - No, but...
I've done all this before, you know, with Jude.
I had him every other weekend when Susie was with Maria.
Anyway she liked the toast, helped with her gums.
She's got a corner of a tooth coming through, you know.
No way. Let me look.
Come on. Open up, darling. Let me see.
Oh, my God, she has.
Best wean her off the breast as soon as you can.
You'd better start getting ready,
cos we need to be setting off in an hour.
Jasmin and Dev might not come, cos they've got a few problems.
I hope you don't mind.
I invited this woman who used to know my mam.
Of course not. It's Dinah's christening.
You can invite anyone you like.
I met her at the hospital. She was there with her daughter.
- She recognised me. - Oh, that's nice.
She's all ready.
Oh. Will you make sure she's got summat warm on for the church?
Might be a bit cold.
Have you told your dad your re-sit results yet?
No, I thought if I were seeing him, I'd like to see the shock.
He'll be shocked, all right.
Mm, I get to meet him and the lovely Kim.
I can't wait.
- What's that supposed to mean? - Nothing.
Look at your face. Just heard a lot about her, that's all.
You're not gonna be all funny with her, are you?
I will be perfectly civil, in fact, I'll be charming.
She hasn't done owt to me.
It's not gonna be easy for any of us, you know.
I know that, I'm just teasing.
Honest. I'm not gonna act like some jealous psycho bitch, am I?
Nobody can make that decision for them.
God, that's horrible. I'll have to go round and see her.
See what they decide. She might be on the ward come Monday.
Both their mums are there, helping, at the minute.
- So, yeah, they're all right. - Are you coping all right?
Well, I'm getting into a routine.
Diane has him four days a week and my mum will have him
once or twice, depending on if I'm working nights.
But it's... It's really hard without Chris.
What made him go?
I don't know, cos, I mean, we were doing all right.
He moved in with me
and bought me this ring.
And then, two months ago,
he said he was gonna try and find her.
Find who?
The woman he married for 5k, so she could get a green card.
But I told him I wasn't bothered about getting married any more,
but he got it in his head to go find her and...
Excuse me, is anyone sitting here?
- No. - Cheers, love.
I mean we Skyped each other every night at first, but now...
- How is he? - Sorry?
The baby found in the toilet, it was me that found him.
Shelly's mum. I didn't recognise you at first.
- I scrub up well. - Hiya.
The baby's a bit snuffly, but he's breathing on his own.
They'll keep him in for a bit, but he's doing fine for a prem.
Poor little thing. Quite like to pop in and see him if I can.
I'm sure they'll let you, if you explain who you are.
So how do you know Rosie and Jude?
I used to knock about with Rosie's mum.
Before I got married. We were at the same school and...
Yeah, I worked with her at Superdrug.
Right. And how are you, Shelly?
Sick of being fat.
- No more twinges? - No.
- Well, it won't be long. - Can't wait.
Rosie and Jude are at the front.
- Where are we supposed to sit? - Here will do.
Kim.
Oh, hi.
Never been to one of these before. No idea what to do.
- They'll tell you what to do. - It's all in the service book.
- Oh. OK. - Looks great, by the way.
- Phuf! I'm still not sure. - Where's Simon?
He's had to wait in for the landlord.
- He's looking after Sonny. - You look amazing.
Look at the pair of you.
You're so slim. I don't know how you've done it.
- Magic pants. - No time to eat.
And look how big he is. Emily looks tiny at the side of Ben.
Susie's over there.
Well, erm... We'll have a chat back at the house.
Yeah.
This is going to be interesting.
I don't think she's seen Susie since they split.
Really? But she must know about...
I don't think so, no.
I saw her yesterday, she didn't mention anything about Susie.
Well, Neil must know and he'll have told her.
No, I don't think so.
I don't things are great between them in the sack.
He's probably tiptoeing round it.
There's been nothing on her blog, about Susie
or the new girlfriend, so I reckon she's no idea.
- I'm a bit nervous. - What for?
I don't know why, I just am.
There's nothing to be nervous about.
- Son, how are you doing? - Got a present for you.
Thought you might like to see this.
- Hasn't he done well? - It's my re-sits.
This is fantastic news.
Cheers. Even better grades than you got.
Hey.
Wow. No, that's brilliant news.
Four Bs. You'll be able to sit your A levels now.
- Well done, Jude. - Good lad.
- Where's Dinah? - Er... Claire's got her.
Who's Claire?
Erm... she's the other godmother. You have two, if it's a girl.
Oh, great.
Well, I'll just follow what she does, then.
- Better sit down. - OK.
SUMITA: She should be resting now.
- She should lie down properly. AMITA: She's lying down.
SUMITA: She should go to bed and rest.
Jesus is the light of the world.
And we ask the community of this church to reject
the world of darkness and to follow a life
that reflects goodness and light.
Sorry. Sorry.
DIANE: Go through. - Come in. Find a seat.
Find a seat.
OK. If Dinah and her parents and godparents
would like to join me at the font for the fun bit?
(Emily cries)
Hello, my little one.
And how are you?
Today is a very special day, isn't it?
And who's this?
- I'm Claire, I'm her godmother. - Welcome, Claire.
You're going to play a very special role in Dinah's life.
And you are?
Marcus, Jude's friend.
- The godfather, I take it? - Yeah.
Not sure what I'm doing, though.
Oh, don't worry, it's my job to tell you all about it.
And you are?
I'm Kim, her other godmother.
Welcome.
Parents and godparents, the Church receives Dinah with joy.
Today, we are putting our trust in God for her growth in faith.
Will you pray for her,
draw her, by your example, into the community of faith
and walk with her in the way of Christ?
How long have you known?
Not long. Jude mentioned something.
But I didn't know if it was still on or if it'd fizzled out.
- You're lying to me. - I'm not.
Don't you think I had a right to know?
- It's none of my business, Kim. - What?
- Are you mental? - It's not my place to tell you.
If Susie wanted you to know, she'd have said something.
You're my partner, Neil, father to my baby.
Of course it's your place. You've made me feel so stupid.
What did you think was gonna happen today?
Did you think I wasn't gonna notice?
I was trying to find the right time.
I didn't want to upset you, things are delicate.
Well, I am upset. Upset that you've all kept it from me.
- I want to go home now. - Kim, I'm sorry.
Everything all right?
No, er... not really, I think we're gonna go home.
You're the godmother.
- She's got another godmother. ROANNA: Please stay.
I'm really sorry about Claire. Susie said it'd be a good idea.
She said it would make her feel welcome in the family.
She's let us stay there and everything.
- Did you say Susie asked you? - Yeah.
I wouldn't have picked her myself, I don't really like her.
My Auntie Christine wanted to be a godmother, anyway.
And she lives at the house?
Yeah, she moved in about three months ago.
- Where did she meet her? - At the garden centre.
- What difference does it make? - A lot. A lot, actually.
It was only meant to be for a few weeks,
until she found another flat.
- But then she never went. - Why didn't you tell me?
We've seen each other every other weekend for months.
- You've been camping with us. - That was before.
It's not her fault, OK? It's my fault.
Rosie, I don't think we're gonna come back. OK?
Why not? It won't be the same if you don't.
I've changed my mind. I think we will go back.
- Kim? - Yeah, I'd like to meet
this woman who's living in the house I helped pay for.
If we're sharing helping Dinah walk "in the way of Christ",
the least I can do is get to know her.
(Distant music blares)
She seems nice.
- Not what I expected. - What's that supposed to mean?
Nothing. I just thought she were gonna be amazing.
She just seems a bit...
I don't know, mumsie.
Oh, I've brought you a bottle of vodka.
- I'll just pop it on the side. - Here, grab a drink.
Oh. Oh, cheers. Thank you.
What's Mummy got?
Yeah, my husband's been in Dubai for over a year now.
But he's due back at t'end of t'month.
Yeah, my husband's been away, too.
It'll be like starting all over again. I can't wait.
You are starting again, Mam.
Let's just hope my dad don't make a mess of it this time.
Thanks.
You shouldn't be drinking that. If the lads saw you,
- you'd be in trouble. - Who's "the lads"?
Andrew and Nathan. I clean for them three times a week.
It's the best job I've ever had. Their place is immaculate.
- She's having their baby. - They drove me mad, at first.
I told 'em if they didn't pack it in, I wouldn't do it.
So now they just ask me if she's taking her folic acid.
If she's eating properly. They send food parcels, don't they?
Yeah. Green stuff. I chuck it straight in t'bin.
Mum, have you got Hope's dummy? She's starting to grizzle.
- I think she needs feeding. - Front pocket of the nappy bag.
In a little plastic box. There's a jar of banana custard as well.
She's like a little mother.
Oh, I know, I couldn't have managed without her.
You've spilt all down your top, Mam.
What?
Oh, my God. What am I like? I need a bib!
I'll just go and wash it off.
So where are you and Rosie going to live when they go travelling?
I don't know. We've only just found out.
We're gonna start looking. Her dad's flat's still empty.
Don't look like he'll be moving back any time soon.
You can't possibly live there with a baby, it's a dump.
- How will you pay the rent? - I'll get a job.
What about your A levels? You just said...
- I can do 'em at night school. - You've thought this through?
Marcus's uncle is looking for an apprentice kitchen fitter.
- For God's sake! - What? What's wrong with that?
I need money, Dad. We've got a baby and another one on the way.
- Don't wanna live on handouts. - There isn't going to be any.
- You heard this, Kim? - Yeah. Does your mum know
- you're gonna pack in school? - It's not up to her.
It's up to me and Rosie. We're 16 now. We can choose.
NEIL: Well, good luck with that.
Ladies and gentlemen, if I could just have your attention
for a few moments, please.
Oh, God, here goes.
Firstly, I want to say thank you to you all for coming
and then I'm going to hand over to Claire...
- Do you think she's attractive? - Yeah, she is.
But she works at it, believe me.
Right, then, I'm new to this, but, as godmother,
we, that's, Rosie, Jude, Susie and me...
Why doesn't she let them talk for themselves?
...thank you all for the presents and good wishes.
We didn't bring a present.
All got a glass of fizz? Cos I'd like to make a toast.
Then we can have some cake.
Which Claire baked and iced herself.
Oh, my God.
To Dinah,
our sweet baby girl, who brings us so much happiness
- to all our lives. - To Dinah.
ALL: To Dinah.
It's just a shame you're throwing her out on the street,
along with her mum and dad come the end of the month.
Kim, I don't think this is...
- Excuse me? - What was that for?
It's true, though, isn't it?
Rosie, say something.
- Jude? NEIL: Leave it, Kim.
- Not exactly throwing us out. NEIL: We're going home.
Do you know that Jude's leaving school so he can get a job,
so he can afford somewhere for them to live?
- Is that true, Jude? - Too wrapped up in your lover
to notice what your son's doing.
So why don't you have them, for a change?
We've had them with us for the past ten months.
Us? Who the hell are you to spout off?
You've no business living here. This house is still part mine!
You'll get every penny back once the money comes through.
SUSIE: Sorry, sorry.
KIM: God!
Kim?
Six months it took you to move her in.
Did you want me to mope around waiting for you...
You could have left it a decent amount of time or told me.
Says you, who shagged my best friend
behind my back, then moved in with him!
Have you any idea what that felt like, Kim?
I couldn't work for the first few months.
I had to go to the doctor to get summat.
I read your... your blog every day to see
if you ever mentioned me or us, but it was like
we never existed, like we never even had a relationship.
It was like you'd scrubbed me out of your life.
- So I scrubbed you out of mine. - Good! Just how I like it.
CLAIRE: Rosie?
Rosie? Rosie, please, you're being ridiculous.
- Can we just not talk about it? - I don't wanna talk about it.
We're not staying where we're not wanted.
- Nobody said you're not wanted. - Where are you going?
We're not staying here.
We're not some old baggage to be pushed from pillar to post.
You made it clear you put up with us cos you had to.
- You don't have to any more. - Jude, you're my son.
- Dinah is my grandchild. - You'd have never guessed.
How can you say that after we've given her this party?
And for that we had to have her as a godmother!
When I didn't want her and now I've upset Kim.
Anyway, I think it's just best if we go.
No, no. Just... Just...
- Let Kim and Neil have them. - We should go, as well.
- Oh, we've just missed a bus. DIANE: I'll give you a lift.
- I'll just round the kids up. - We'll make a move, as well.
Yeah. Whatever. I think you should all go.
(Sighs)
I just don't see why Susie having a...
...a partner is such a big bloody deal.
It's not a big deal.
It was the fact that nobody told me.
It was the humiliation of it all.
It must have been difficult for Susie, as well,
seeing you and me together and that can't have been easy.
Why are you taking her side?
She didn't look bothered about anything.
She was happy.
And you're not?
- Is that what you're saying? - No.
No.
It's not... that, it's...
- It's just... - What?
Well, she's moved on.
And nobody told me.
I've felt so sad and...
and guilty, yeah, guilty about what we did to her.
I haven't been able to stop thinking about it,
imagining her upset and lonely.
And thinking what we did was wrong.
And I haven't...
I haven't been able to enjoy...
...us properly.
I didn't feel I deserved...
your love, your body...
you.
I didn't think I... deserved to be happy.
JUDE: A bit dirty round here. ROSIE: No, it's fine.
- Is it even safe? - Yes.
- Is there even a bed in there? - Yeah. Kim cleaned it all up
before we left and she changed t'sheets on the bed.
Gonna be cold. Nobody's lived here for t'past ten months.
We'll get t'fire on and turn t'heating up.
It'll soon warm through.
It's that one there.
- (Lift bell pings) - At least t'lift's not broken.
I never liked Claire, anyway, she pretended to like me
and Dinah, but I could tell she didn't.
I know. She never liked me, either.
She just pretended to, to impress my mam.
(Thud)
ROSIE: Uhh! Oh, my God!
T'same as what happened last time. The lift's broken again!
- Oh, my God. - Oh, for Christ's sake!
- (Liquid hits floor) - Urgh. Oh, my God!
- What is it? What is it? - Urghh!
Where's my phone?
Urgh. I think my waters have broken.
What? When?
I've been having twinges all day.
Now you tell me! Why didn't you say anything?
Now what are we gonna do?
Press the alarm bell on the panel and then ring Kim.
(Contented sighs)
That was so lovely.
God, I've missed you.
If I'd have known that was all it was going to take,
I'd have invited Susie and Claire round for dinner.
I didn't know what was wrong with me, so how would you know?
(Mobile rings)
Best get that.
- Jude? - Dad, Dad!
- We're stuck in a lift and... - Slow down, slow down.
- I don't know what floor... - Who is we?
- Rosie's gone into labour! - What is it?
- Jesus! How do you know? - I don't know what floor...
- All right. - (Panicked gabbling)
All right. Have you pressed the alarm button?
What's happened?
Press it again. We'll be there as soon as we can. All right?
Oh.
Rosie and Jude...
are stuck in a lift at her father's flat.
Rosie's waters have broken and she's gone into labour.
- Dinah's with them. - Oh, my God. Oh, my God.
Oh, my God, this is all my fault.
No.
No, no, it isn't.
No guilt. Right?
Lifts break down. Shit happens.
Yeah.
Ice cream with olives, baby!
I brought this on us, Dev.
It's my fault.
No, that is rubbish.
Jas, I'm not having that.
When I found out I was pregnant again...
...I wished it would just go away.
And then when... when I found out I were having twins...
...I really didn't want them.
Yeah, well that was to be expected,
cos you hadn't really got over having Amber.
But now I've got used to the idea and...
...I love them.
Both.
(Sniffs)
They're my babies.
Our baby boys or girls.
Yeah, they're a part of us.
How can we decide?
I want them, Dev.
I want them both.
More than anything in this world.
- (Howls) - I'm trying.
- I don't know what you want. - I think I wanna push.
No, you don't. You can't. Not yet. Just hold on till someon...
Press the alarm again.
I don't think it's working.
Thank God!
- (Dinah cries) - Sssh.
- It's all right. Go to sleep. - Put the blankets on the floor.
They'll get dirty.
Put them on the floo-oo-oor!
Come on!
Agh.
Come on, Rosie.
- Quickly! - Rosie?
- Is she all right?
- Are you all right? - I think the baby's coming!
It's all happening really quick!
Oh, my God.
Floor three.
What? How long have you been having contractions?
I've had a few twinges today,
but it started bad when we were on our way here.
Oh, I've got another o-o-one!
Rosie?
Jude, can you hear me?
All right.
Urghh!
Ring someone, Vicky, the police, anyone!
I'm trying, Rosie, I'm trying!
She's telling me to ring someone. Who?
NEIL: Come on! Hello?
- Oh. We're here! We're here! - For God's sake.
- Yes. Yes, I'm here. - What have you got with you?
JUDE: I don't know. - OK.
They pressed the alarm button, but nothing happened.
It's important that Rosie gets as low as she can to the floor.
Tell her to squat down. Squat down. That's right.
Has she got any hand-sanitiser in her nappy bag or wash bag?
Yeah. Right. OK. Right, Rosie. You've got to squat down.
Squat down, Rosie!
But there's hardly any room!
We've got a suitcase and a pushchair in here.
- Found some hand-sanitiser. - Its head's coming, Jude!
Did you hear that? Its head's coming!
KIM: Oh, my God. OK.
Jude, calm down.
Take some deep breaths.
You're going to have to get down there and see what's going on.
You might have to guide the baby out and wrap it up in something
and then just let the afterbirth come away.
- Oh, for Christ's sake! - Any scissors in her wash bag?
Come on, then. I'm coming!
What are you doing with that door, mate?
- Trying to open it! - Three grand if you break that.
You took your time. The liftman's here!
- We'll have you out now. - OK.
Jude?
- Rosie? - Come on. Come on.
Jude?
Dinah's got a sister.
Wow.
You did it.
Come here.
Let me see her.
Oh, she's beautiful.
Well done, son. Oh, look at that.
Are you all right?
We'd better get you straight to hospital.
No.
There's nothing wrong with me.
I want to go to the flat. I want to go home.
Rosie seems to know exactly what she wants.
Is it just that she's young?
Or is it a case of the older I get,
the more I over-think things
and the more complicated life becomes?
(Knocks)
They're ready for you now.
What?
- (Giggles) - Come on!
- I feel sick. - Oh, shut up, Dev.
They want you to make a statement.
Do they think it's my fault?
And it's my womb, so back off.
Just remember whose baby this is, Shelly.
If Emma and Simon walk in here now, how would you explain this?
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