Previously on This Is Us...
Any Sunday my dad
had to go into the office, he would, uh,
take me on the train to the city with him.
I loved those Sundays.
You and the girls and Beth should get here
as soon as you can.
They're saying it won't be long now.
It's not gonna stay a secret long
if you keep touching your belly like that.
- What? I didn't touch my belly. - Mm-hmm.
You okay, Dej?
I'm fine.
Um, let's-let's go see her.
So, looks like we get off next exit, 6.8 miles.
Thanks for the 24-hour heads-up.
Eyes on the road, please.
With this eye candy sitting right next to me?
I'll try, but no promises.
Marcus gets me.
Mm. Well, God help you both.
Eyes on road.
This is taking forever.
You drive like an old man.
Let me tell you something, my petulant daughter.
One day, you'll remember enjoying this precious time,
with your world-class mother, your Denzel-esque father...
This again?
- You do not look like him. - I so do.
Driving home from your brother's
travel tournament where he won MVP
Marcus won MVP?
I hadn't heard. Can you repeat that, like,
a hundred more times?
- Boys. - Your father's driving.
- Marcus, in your seat. - Hey.
Seatbelt please, Marcus.
Kenny!
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Rebecca?
How you doing in there, honey?
I'm waiting for someone.
My father always wanted to take me on a train like this.
He'd say, "One day, we're gonna take a ride on a train where...
people wear tuxedos and drink Vespers."
I had no idea what a Vesper was, but I knew I wanted one.
A martini with gin, vodka and Lillet.
Shaken, never stirred.
James Bond.
That's right.
Sit with me.
Remind me of the poem?
The one that gave me the idea for his name.
- "Luzon." - "Luzon."
Yes.
Dudley Randall.
Will you recite it for me?
"Splendid against the night,
"the searchlights, the tracers' arcs
and the red flair bombs filling the eye and the brain."
Would you like to go to the bar car with me, Rebecca?
I'm waiting for someone.
I know. It's okay.
Come on.
All right.
All right, everybody?
That is it, the food is ready.
Come on and get it, it's time to eat.
Got enough food in here to choke a horse.
- Be right there. - All right.
Hey, uh, thanks for doing all this.
Can I, can I chip in, or...
Oh, no. Toby, come on, don't be silly.
- It's fine. - Kev, I can pay for my own food.
I was just k... I'm kidding.
It's a callback to our old dynamic.
Yes. Yes. Yeah.
Seriously, though, uh, thanks for including me.
I appreciate it.
Mom wouldn't have had it any other way.
Hey. Move, move, Nicky's going straight
for that orange chicken, and I'm not getting stuck
with no lame-ass moo shu, Nicky.
Here, Daddy. You need to eat.
Franny, you are so sweet.
Hey, hey, hey!
- Uh-oh... - Hey, there.
- Hello. - We have arrived.
What's going on? What up, Jack?
- What up, Hail? - Here they are. Come hug me up.
I didn't think I was gonna get to see you until I got home.
- Hey, Dad. - Hey, sweetheart. Hi, how are you?
We're good, but we are all in desperate need of a pee.
- But, uh... - Long journey?
- Yes. - Come this way. Say hi to everybody.
- Hi, guys. - Hey.
- Hey, good to see you. - Hi, everyone.
- Welcome, welcome. - How's she doing?
She's hanging in. I mean,
well, they say it could be a couple days to a week, so...
Mm. All right.
Is that orange chicken?
- It was. - Don't worry.
I stashed you some in the fridge.
Thank you, Edie.
You are the only one I like.
You talk to Kate?
Yeah. She-she rushed to the airport
and is, uh, boarding a plane from London any minute.
So she'll be here in the morning.
Okay, good.
Well, eat up. There's plenty of food.
- Yeah. - Thank you.
Those ribs are a favorite. You love them.
Oh, I love a rib.
He can have a rib.
Quite a tower you got there.
Terrible.
We're all just...
...waiting.
Laughing.
Eating Chinese.
Is this even right?
I don't think there are any rules.
For any of this.
You?
You okay?
If I tell you something big right now,
you have to promise not to react.
You have to be totally cool.
If there's one distinguishing quality of Randall Pearson,
it's that he's effortlessly cool.
I'm not playing.
I'm pregnant.
You're gonna be a grandfather.
Don't. Don't.
We're not even married yet.
I just started my medical residency.
He's working all the time.
You know how he is about work.
May I give you a very Randall Pearson,
effortlessly cool hug...
...that nobody notices?
You may.
But just stop calling yourself
effortlessly cool.
I'm very happy, Dej.
Does he know?
I was gonna tell him after this weekend.
He's working late.
Because what else is new?
Look at me, Frank.
I'm in the prime of my life, dude.
And I'm here with you every night,
trying to reduce cell inflammation
in pancreatic tumors.
Working our tails off.
Well, I worked mine off.
You still have yours.
Holy crap.
Excuse me.
I know we wanted her to rest, but...
Rebecca's blood pressure's dropping
and her legs are starting to go cold.
Things are happening quickly now.
I don't see her making it through the night.
I think it's time to start saying goodbyes.
- What's the briefing? - Marcus Brooks.
11-year-old male. Unrestrained passenger
in a motor vehicle crash.
Open fracture to the right lower leg.
No pulse in foot.
Got two units of blood ready.
Family's in the waiting room.
So, should we draw really... sad straws?
Anybody want to go say goodbye first?
I'll go.
Beth.
What are you doing here?
I just wanted to see you.
I just wanted to say...
...so much of being a mom
is about faking it, isn't it?
We don't know what the hell we're doing.
Not when they're young.
Not when they're older.
So we fake it.
We imitate what we think a mom should be.
I had a good mom.
But, uh...
...we were complicated.
I just want to say...
...all these years,
so many times when I was faking it...
...I was doing my best impression of you, Rebecca.
I'll take him the rest of the way, Mama.
Thank you
for helping me with that...
complicated, incredible,
beautiful boy that you raised.
But I got him now.
Rebecca?
The train is moving fast.
We have to keep going, dear.
Well, I boarded.
Should be there in less than 12 hours.
Is everyone there?
Kate, Mom's taken a turn.
We don't think she's gonna make it through the night.
Oh, my God.
I should have never come on this trip.
No.
No, don't-don't say that.
All right? You're doing exactly what Mom wanted you to do.
- You're taking the big swings. - Yeah.
Taking your curriculum international...
there's nothing bigger than that.
You tell her that I'm on my way.
Do you hear me?
You tell Mom that her daughter is on her way.
Miss, I have to ask you to turn off your phone.
Okay.
I got to go.
You tell her. You hear me?
- We will. - Mm.
Rebecca.
Welcome.
What are you having?
Marcus. Marcus, it's late.
I want to go home to my wife.
She's not much, but she's better than this place.
Sir, look at this.
We're seeing a small decrease in cell inflammation.
The drug is working.
No.
Marcus,
do you know how many cancer drugs are being tested?
How many are ahead of ours?
How many swings
- and misses... - Sir, d-due respect,
- this is very promising. - It's an interesting result,
and I'll send it up the ladder.
But...
...our funding has run dry.
We're shutting down.
Go home, kid.
You need to make a life for yourself
outside of this place.
Don't you have someone nice to be home with?
How you doing?
I said what I needed to say.
I'm at peace with it.
Now I just want her to be.
What'd you say to her?
Uh-uh. I'm not tellin'.
Was it about me?
It's a secret.
Ah. I got you.
Well, I got a secret, too.
Hmm.
Mm-hmm.
And it's a whopper, if I do say so myself.
Deja's pregnant.
How the hell did...
Come on, man. She told you?
I'm that girl's mother, Randall.
I knew she was pregnant before she did.
Oh...
You're gonna be a grandpappy.
You gonna be a meemaw.
Hell no. Anybody call me Meemaw,
I'm stuffing that baby right back up inside of her.
Mm.
Kev and I are gonna go in there last.
Stay with her.
I don't know what I want to say to her.
I want to tell her she can go,
but I don't want to scare her, you know?
Just, um...
I want to get it right.
You will.
You always do.
Old life,
new life.
It's so strange.
The dichotomy, you know?
Not really.
But I married you so I wouldn't have to learn
- all the big words. - Mm.
Another bite.
Be with you in just a second, dear.
Last chance for the Steelers.
Bradshaw, trying to get away.
And his pass is...
broken up by Tatum.
Picked off!
Franco Harris has it!
And he's over!
Limoncello?
Or is that too on the nose?
Hey, if life gives you lemons...
Actually...
could you make me a Vesper?
Coming right up.
Your kids grew up beautifully.
Now you can see.
You should've got your glasses earlier,
you know that?
Yeah, you're handsome.
Check it out. Smile.
Looking good.
Kate's not here.
Yeah. I know.
I've spent my whole life worrying about them.
Wondering...
...what else I could do for them, and...
and now...
There's nothing left to do.
You trust the process.
And...
...you drink a Vesper.
Thank you.
Mmm.
And you thought I just delivered babies.
Hmm.
I made so many mistakes.
Well, I hate to break it to you, kiddo,
but I have yet to meet the parent who says
"I got it all right."
No perfect games in parenting.
Not even close.
Hmm.
Can I tell you something?
Something I'm...
not supposed to say?
I, um...
I thought I was gonna lose you that day.
And I sense that you felt it, too.
There was a moment,
right after the first child came out,
and you started crashing.
And that little voice in my head kept saying,
"You're gonna lose the mother.
Save the children if you can."
But you came through.
You survived.
You survived just to lose a child
and then a husband.
And, still...
...what a thing you made of it all.
What a big,
messy,
gigantic...
...spectacular thing.
I said it to you once. I say it again.
You're as tough as they come, Rebecca Pearson.
And you, my dear,
have earned a rest.
William?
Thank you.
For being my doctor.
Eh.
I was only your doctor that one time.
It was a big one, though.
Yes, it was.
All right, now these were your grandmother's. Right?
And, uh...
...she was her favorite.
Yeah.
And this... this right here...
was my favorite.
Huh? That's the real stuff right there.
Now, kids only, kids only. No adults.
- Anybody know who this is? - Joni Mitchell.
Joni Mitchell! Spot-on.
Very, very nice, Jack.
And, Nicholas, did you know that when your grandmother
was first diagnosed, we actually broke into
Joni Mitchell's house? Did you know that?
It's a true story. Your grandmother loved
a good B&E.
Uh, you know, for the record,
from what I've been told,
you pushed through an open gate
and had a pleasant conversation
in Joni Mitchell's driveway, but...
I don't know who told you that, but you know, I'll tell you,
- just let a tall tale be a tall tale. - That's my bad.
Didn't, uh, Rebecca take a road trip to L.A. with Jack
on their third date?
A ballsy third date by my brother.
Now, your Uncle Nicky took me to Olive Garden
- on our third date. - That's very impressive.
You said you loved Olive Garden,
so I took you to Olive Garden.
And I don't remember you complaining.
You know, we were just talking about your road trip with Jack.
You two really had
a once-in-a-lifetime love story.
Just like me and Kevin.
♪ And go 'round and 'round and 'round ♪
♪ In the circle game ♪
Minus all the turbulence and psychotherapy, obviously.
Even when your daughter and I were at our worst,
you never stopped believing in me.
I hope I turned out to be the father
that you always knew I could be,
even though things didn't work out
the way that we thought they would.
Uh, Rebecca, you can tell me.
You love me more than Philip, right?
You know Rebecca was a low-key Pearson matchmaker?
Mm.
Even when I was unsure about marrying Randall...
Now, hold on now. Wait.
Unsure about marrying me?
Oh, come on, it's R&B legend, Boo.
Own it. Okay?
You're talking nonsense, woman.
You know it's R&B for life.
It is R&B for life. It is.
Okay, okay.
You guys are way too old for this much PDA.
What are you talking about?
- How do you think you got here? - Look away.
Okay, I'm out of here. _
♪ Behind from where we came, and go 'round... ♪ _
I always felt so small in this family.
Everyone else was so big.
So loud.
Do you remember what you said to me?
You told me that it's okay to be small,
as long as I didn't think of myself as small.
That quiet was okay.
As long as I wasn't afraid to be loud.
Beth,
do you remember my bachelorette...
the-the first one.
Sorry.
I don't think I've actually heard this story.
- Please, no, no, no, go on. - Uh...
So Kate hired a... What was it?
- What was his official title? - Stripper.
A stripper.
A stripper that we painted.
Oh, gosh, will you look at the time.
I think it's time for the kids to go to bed.
Madison, thank you for the stripper story.
- Yeah. Yeah, sorry. - Appreciate that.
- Sorry, kids. Kids... - No, no.
- It's all good. - She was always there.
She was always there.
And I didn't know that, you know, at the time,
his relationship with his mom. And I didn't realize...
My mother and I are close. I won't be judged.
Bye.
- Have a good night. - Good night, everybody.
- Good night. - ♪ And 'round ♪
♪ In the circle game ♪
First of all, she said you're an idiot.
And then she said...
- Shat did she... - I told you, she's a low-key,
- she's a low-key matchmaker. - No.
- What did she say? - Okay, good night.
Good night, Soph.
- We'll make it. - Are you okay?
♪ Behind from where we came ♪
♪ And go 'round and 'round and 'round... ♪
- Good night. - See you in the morning.
♪ Game ♪
♪ And go 'round and 'round and 'round ♪
♪ In the circle game. ♪
Hey, Mom.
It's us. Kevin and Randall.
Kate's on her way, but she wanted you to know
that she's here in spirit.
Yeah.
So, um...
she's with us here, too.
Oh.
Mm.
Do you remember that time Kate got appendicitis,
we had to take her to the hospital? Thanksgiving?
No, it was Christmas. I got a snow globe.
Mm...
No, I'm sure of it. I wouldn't have bought
a snow globe if it was Thanksgiving.
Fair enough.
- Question. - Hmm?
Pilgrim Rick. A real-life person,
or did we just make him up?
I think Dad made him up.
See, I think he was a real-life person.
'Cause Dad, he wasn't that creative a storyteller, right?
I don't think he could just conjure up Pilgrim Rick.
Fair enough.
Yeah.
Strangely ripped for a dad in the '90s, wasn't he?
- Did a lot of pushups. - Loved 'em.
- Yeah. - Couldn't get enough.
Remember that thing he used to do with you?
He would put you on his back
at the karate place, the...
- Dojo. - Dojo. Yeah.
You know, Mom once drove me to go get my John Smiley
- baseball card autographed. - Hmm.
99% sure John Smiley had a crush on Mom.
Everyone had a crush on Mom.
Yeah.
I like that she kept your painting up.
It's actually not bad.
No, it's not.
Should I have been a professional painter?
You should not have been.
I wonder if any of this is getting through to her.
Hey, you.
Great nose, great legs.
You like the wine.
Oh, I wasn't talking about the wine.
You know, I still...
I still can't get over it after all of these years.
It's still you.
What?
My favorite person.
Rebecca?
Dej.
Hey.
Malik.
The nurse let me in.
I ran out of the restaurant when I got your text.
Oh...
I know we weren't expecting this,
and I know it's complicated.
It really isn't, Dej.
I've loved you since I was 16.
I want to marry you.
I want to have this baby with you.
Oh, Lord, someone's in a mood.
Oh, another long night with the rats?
Our funding got shut down.
The drug didn't work.
Not enough, anyway.
I just spent years chasing something
that led to nothing, so...
Bro, are you seriously mad 'cause you didn't cure cancer
on the first try?
Yeah, I know.
I don't know, I'm just... I'm just down.
I just thought this was the big thing I was meant to do.
The nurse said he's still in the OR.
They're waiting for a trauma surgeon.
They're concerned about blood circulation to his foot.
It's my fault.
I shouldn't have smacked the ball away from him.
Hey. Hey. Look at me.
It was an accident.
It's no one's fault. It's no one's fault.
Marcus is gonna be fine.
Listen to me.
It's gonna be a long night, but he's gonna be fine.
Um, I'm gonna go get us some coffee.
Vending machines are next door, if you're looking for those.
Oh, no.
Just coffee.
Well, you're in the right spot for that,
if you can legally call this stuff coffee.
Long night?
Yeah.
Yeah, my house burned down.
Whole thing. Middle of the night.
Just, poof!
Barely got the family out.
- Jesus. - Yeah.
Everyone okay?
Yeah.
I got a little dinged up, so I'll just
wait for 'em to take me in, check my hands out
and run a few tests.
My family was in a car accident.
Everyone all right?
No, actually.
My son Marcus, he's in surgery.
Sorry.
You're pretty much catching me on the worst night of my life.
Hey, come on now.
What did Dad always say?
Oh, no. Please, no. I can't...
I can't listen to some greeting card platitude
about lemons right now, no.
You know what?
I was here 18 years ago,
a night not too different than tonight.
One of those nights that changes everything.
And, uh,
a pretty smart guy,
he said a pretty smart thing to me.
- What does it even mean?! - No, look, look.
He was saying that even the darkest moment
can turn into something sweet.
With lemonade?
With something resembling lemonade.
How is this our family motto?!
What is wrong with you?
You know Dad!
O2 sat is dropping.
Heart rate is dropping.
- Loss of pulse. - Starting CPR.
Call Dr. Spencer, now.
I want you applying the cream every 12 hours, okay?
You took in a tremendous amount of smoke.
- Okay, talk to me. - I think it's a fat embolism.
Recommending anti-coagulation now.
Hold it, stop. He could bleed out.
Continue CPR.
Okay, I am gonna go make us hotel reservations.
Gonna call the kids.
Stop CPR. I've got a pulse.
Good save.
Dr. Spencer, you're needed back downstairs
- in the ER stat. - Thank you.
We lost Pearson in 107.
Cardiac arrest. Lifesaving measures did not work.
What?
He was presenting normal not 20 minutes ago.
I had a kid coding upstairs,
and this was just smoke inhalation.
I've got to find his wife.
Mrs. Pearson?
Oh.
Mrs. Pearson, your husband has died.
Your son is gonna be okay.
He has a long recovery ahead of him.
No.
I told you I'm waiting for someone.
She's a fighter, your mother.
- I'm here if you need me. - Thank you.
Hey, look at that. The kids are playing four square.
Would you look at that?
So strange.
The dichotomy, you know?
Mom!
It's okay.
Hey, Mom.
It's me. It's Bug.
I'm here. I'm here.
I love you, Mom.
I love you so much.
Okay.
I want to say the perfect thing to you, Mom,
but, uh...
I'm not sure what that is.
I don't even know if you can hear me,
but, uh...
...I love you, Mom.
Uh, we're good now.
You made us good.
So, uh...
thanks for all the meals.
Thank you for always making us feel loved.
Thank you for that one time you beat down David Adams
for hitting me in the head with a baseball bat.
I love you, Ma.
This is quite sad, isn't it?
The end?
Oh, I don't know.
The way I see it,
if something makes you sad when it ends,
it must have been pretty wonderful when it was happening.
Truth be told,
I've always felt it a bit lazy
to just think of the world as sad,
because so much of it is.
Because everything ends.
Everything dies.
But if you step back...
If you step back and look at the whole picture...
If you're brave enough to allow yourself
the gift of a really wide perspective...
And so, for his pioneering role
in the development of drugs
targeting Alzheimer's disease,
we're proud to honor Dr. Marcus Brooks.
You know, this all started from a number of cancer drugs
that didn't work. Uh...
If you do that...
...you'll see that the end is not sad, Rebecca.
It's just the start of the next
incredibly beautiful thing.
It's like that dopey painting your son made that time.
Hey, I really love that painting.
Okay.
You tell him hey.
Hey.
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