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So, I have your name, Arabella Essiedu.
Next to that, Stranger One,
seven weeks ago DFSA,
which stands for Drug-Facilitated Sexual Assault.
So, anything else I come to know will be what you share with me
and is confidential.
Okay.
- Has it started? - The session?
- Mm. - Yeah.
Okay.
[MUSIC: THESE ARE THE DAYS BY GUVNA B]
♪ Gotta give thanks way too much peace ♪
♪ When I two step to the beat, that feels sweet ♪
♪ Way too blessed, that's me ♪
- ♪ Back then things got messy ♪ - _
♪ Way too stressy ♪
♪ Now good vibes at the ready ♪
♪ Tell a man grab a little bevvy' ♪
- ♪ Shout out Femi my joy ♪ - _
♪ They ain't taking any ♪
♪ These are the days ♪
♪ We prayed for ♪
♪ The sun still shines on me... ♪
- How long does this... ? - One hour.
Okay.
- It's tough. - Yeah.
How are you doing?
I'm great, great.
I'm great as long as I'm around people.
Um...
When I'm alone...
Flashbacks?
It's just sometimes it gets a bit much.
What do you do when it gets a bit much?
I ju... I just make sure I'm around someone, anyone.
Um...
Yeah, and if I'm not I say,
"There are hungry children, there are hungry children,
there are hungry children".
"There's a war in Syria, there's a war in Syria,
there's a war in Syria"
or "Not everyone has a smartphone,
not everyone has a smartphone, not everyone has a smartphone"
to remind myself of the bigger picture.
Sometimes, when we try our best to see the big picture...
... we lose sight of the little one altogether.
The little detail here is you.
[MAN CLEARS THROAT]
[ZIP UNZIPS] Oh...
... yeah.
[DOOR BANGS]
Rape Trauma Syndrome. It's got some common symptoms:
frequent flashbacks,
high irritability in places
or situations that remind you of the assault,
difficulty focusing, emotional numbing,
which can sometimes be a hard one to know you have.
Do you have any advice for focus?
Cos I have the first draft of a book due.
I was doing all right before everything, but now...
... my head's just sort of...
Yeah.
They have given me, um...
... a guy, um, to help me.
Have you asked to take a break?
I don't get paid until I've delivered my first draft
so a break isn't going to help me.
The only thing they're paying for is this therapy.
I see, okay.
I can only remind you
to take care of yourself whenever possible.
[MEN MOAN]
[TOILET FLUSHES]
And that one...
With family?
Family?
Yeah. Yeah, I see... I see 'em a bit.
You haven't told your mum, I guess?
But I've got friends. Yeah, yeah, yeah.
And my friends, they, you know, they all know what happened so...
It's helpful to identify people you trust,
and, then, from there, try doing relaxing,
creative things together.
Like?
Um... You could go for walks,
yoga, jogging, meditation,
- painting. - Painting?
Handicrafts.
I don't think I know what handicrafts is.
Colouring in.
Um...
Yeah, my friends aren't really going to be, um...
Ben, actually. Um, this is his kind of shit.
Ben will be into...
I'll just text him.
He's typing.
- [PHONE BUZZES] - Ah,
he's not in tonight.
Fuck. Band practice.
I'll sort it.
I'm okay, I'll be fine. I will... Yeah, okay.
Yep, I know what I'm going to do. I'll be fine.
You are the phoenix rising from the flames. What are you?
- ALL: Phoenix! - What are you?
- The phoenix! - Now rise.
Take flight over the bodies of your dead enemies.
What are you? Are you going to be the phoenix or the pigeon class?
- The phoenix! - Good!
No, no, no, no, no, double time. Double time!
What you saying? Huh? Huh? What you saying?
Right, yous lot, you don't need to pretend to be someone you're not.
You do that every day at work,
on the train, at home with your family.
When you're here with me, I give you permission
to do you.
Knee pumps. Four,
and three, two,
one, well done!
Well done, my phoenixes.
All right, two minutes water break.
Right, get your air inside you. Good.
- Yo. - Hey.
Um...
My grandma really liked your class this morning,
- the, um, aqua aerobics. - Oh, I'm glad.
Yeah, I saw you in, um... I saw you in the window.
Cool, um...
You know, it's actually my last class so if you want to grab
a coffee or something, I'll be done in 30.
- Okay, everyone, back in one minute. - [ARABELLA BREATHES DEEPLY]
[SOUND DISTORTS]
[SHE BREATHES HEAVILY]
[SHE EXHALES RAGGEDLY]
You know what, I actually feel a bit sorry for him.
Yeah?
Yeah, he's visiting from Ghana.
Most days, he can't even look me in the eye. I'm like,
I'm like "Hey, Dad!"
He's scrunching his face, cursing the house.
Ah, it's whatever.
One more day and he gone!
I've never really spoken to a brother who was, um...
What, gay?
[THEY LAUGH]
Come on, you can say it, we're in Britain...
no-one's going to throw me off a building,
chase me with a stick.
You can say it.
Say what I am.
A gay guy.
Are we the same?
[HE CHUCKLES]
- Um... - Look, even if you never find an answer,
I think it's really cool that you're asking yourself the question.
This is me.
So...
Like, um...
- I would, but... - Your dad's there.
- You live with your nan, right? - Yeah.
If I could find somewhere for us,
would you be interested?
I could be, still.
Even if it involved someone else?
Yeah, I ain't scared.
Why would you be?
- Sorry I'm late. - Oh, no. Um, thank you for...
- You good? - Yeah, yeah. How are you doing?
Yeah, yeah, yeah. So, um,
- Francine called to say you need some help with... - Yeah.
Closing the tills now cos we're closing,
do you want anything?
Great! Thank you.
- Well... - Um...
We could try a bar. Some hotel ones are pretty quiet.
- A bar? - Okay, not a bar.
Um, we could use the office.
I can ask Julian if his office is free.
- I'm good with a bar. - Yeah?
Yeah. Yeah.
_
"Tina finished her Sprite, considered leaving
but realised she didn't know the way to the bus stop.
She went to the toilet.
You sat there like an African king in Adidas trackies,
smiling at the bones left on your plate.
You rubbed your lips together, leaving no corner, crack or crevice
- safe from the chicken grease with the skill of a magician..." - Um...
Okay.
- Sorry. - No, no, don't say sorry. Don't say sorry.
What, um...
... genre is this?
Um...
It's just like... It's actually quite hard to really, um...
Hi, there, would you like to order anything?
- Just water, tap for me, and you? - No.
I'm not... I'm not drinking anything.
[SOUND DISTORTS]
So, um...
Tina And Terrell In Tinsel Town is just one chapter.
- I go into all these different... - What's your background?
Ghana.
- Career background? How did you, um... ? - Oh, right...
- How did I start? Um... - Yeah.
Yeah, I was just expressing myself online
and, yeah, people just seemed to
- really respond to the stuff I was... - Tweeting.
Yeah, and then everyone on Twitter was like,
"Why haven't you got a book? You should make a book!"
- So, then, I was like, "Yeah, I'm going to..." - Make a book.
- Yeah, exactly, yeah. - What was it called?
Chronicles Of A Fed-Up Millennial.
- Chronicles Of A Fed-Up Millennial? - Mm.
And, um, this one you're on the way to finishing?
- No, I'm not... - [SOUND DISTORTS]
I'm not drinking anything.
And you're being published by Henny House, that's...
[SOUND DISTORTS]
Most people who get a commission from Susy Henny,
know about Susy Henny.
Who knew I could sub three years of uni for a Twitter account.
I know a lot of people with degrees who are good and...
No, no, it doesn't have to... I don't...
- I'm so sorry, I have to go. - That's my bad, I'm sorry about that.
It's not you, it's just, um... Sorry.
[PHONE BEEPS] _
_
[HE CHUCKLES]
Long time, sis, long time.
Yeah, man, was in the area.
You live like ten minutes away. Where's your key, man?
Mum's at work, I'm going church, so...
[MUSIC: PULL UP BY BLANCO]
♪ Step for the kill ♪
♪ Gyal a one sec like Brazil ♪
♪ Thugs in the back they ain't going to film ♪
♪ Caught on the slide, they ain't going to drill, blue ♪
♪ Lights when I'm running so real ♪
♪ Sword down my leg to conceal ♪
♪ Wait for the time to reveal ♪
♪ Shawty, she eat me, course I'm a meal ♪
♪ Four-bro ride till the E-N-D ♪
♪ Real time, GMT ♪
♪ SA the realest BMT ♪
♪ Lean out the window then D-A-B ♪
♪ Pop her on top, U-A-V ♪
♪ Portable ting, that's a PSP... ♪
[SOUND DISTORTS]
♪ ... sugar... ♪
UNDER BREATH: There's a war in Syria, there's war in Syria,
there's war in Syria. There are hungry children,
there are hungry children, there are hungry children.
Not everyone has a smartphone, not...
♪ Two years left, T minus ♪
♪ Step on the pedals, nitrous ♪
♪ Spin, go, block, Ibis ♪
♪ Lights froze on Leonidas ♪
♪ Run, many run from sirens ♪
♪ Street shack fighting bison ♪
♪ JC around the horizon ♪
♪ Drums are letting rip ♪
♪ Tyson ♪
♪ Tropical, darling ♪
♪ Come, I'm looking for a Spartan... ♪
You ready?
I don't have to do anything with the other guy, right?
Nah, you ain't gotta do anything at all.
You're very sexy, Kwame.
[DOOR CLICKS]
Sup!
- Hey. - Wha' you sayin'?
Yeah, wha' you sayin'?
[RAP MUSIC PLAYS]
It's shoes off.
[INTERCOM BUZZES]
- Yo. - ZAIN: I'm outside.
Mm...
This is good.
Good or good, considering?
Considering what?
Um, what's... what's your background?
- India. - [THEY CHUCKLE]
You are such a fucking dick.
Um, I studied creative writing,
and got signed in final year.
Ah, where'd you go?
I was with Portland Street Publishers first,
but Julian seemed a little more...
- ... rough and ready, do you know what I mean? - No, um...
- Where'd you go uni? - Oh, um...
... Cambridge.
[SHE LAUGHS] You went to Cambridge.
Course you did, yes.
Now I get it.
Oh, Zain, I'm so sorry!
No, I'm actually really sorry.
- Oh! - You done? You done...
- No! You went to Cambridge! - Nope.
You must be hugging your certificate at night.
[THEY LAUGH]
Hm...
Do you like colouring pencils?
No.
Fuck.
Shall I go? I've got no idea what's going on.
No, no, I'm just...
No, I'm just, like, did I know this was going to happen?
Is this a good idea?
Dunno.
What?
Well, we're probably going to be having sex soon, innit?
- Shall we do that now? - Yeah.
- Why don't you care about my book? - Cos you don't.
Oh, fuck off, mate.
- [DOOR OPENS] - Ben? Ben?
Hi, mate!
This is Zain.
Hi, hi.
- Hello, mate. - I didn't know that you were here.
Yeah, same, didn't hear a thing.
Yeah, I was just listening to the band sesh,
kind of sounding pretty good.
That's fantastic.
- I'll see you in the morning. - Great.
Oh, um, do like the idea of painting, though,
so, we should do that one day.
Yeah.
So... um...
- This is my room. - Can I just kiss you?
- I've been thinking about it for a few hours. - Hm.
- [SOUND DISTORTS] - Whoa.
Sorry.
Um...
You, yeah... Are you okay?
Yeah. Yeah, just um...
Yeah.
- I can go... - No! Um...
If you're not...
Please, stay.
- What about you? - What about me?
- Where you from? - Depends who's asking.
If it's a black person, I'm going to tell them I'm from Nigeria.
If they're English asking me where I'm from,
they're getting Barking and Dagenham, bruv.
If they ask me a second time, they're getting sparked.
[THEY CHUCKLE]
♪ Why all these batty boys act like their mothers? ♪
♪ Then their ass puttin' shame on your brothers... ♪
Yo, bro, I beg you play something else.
♪ Don't get me wrong, I got love for my own... ♪
Oh, for real?
♪ But kissin' my niggas is not really for me... ♪
And what you into?
I'm into everything.
Is that right?
Tell me that again.
I said, I'm into...
- ... everything. - Ohh!
He's into me.
I ain't tryna fuck him.
Some bruddas like a quiet ting, some bruddas just watch.
You're fuckin' sexy, you know that?
Come here.
♪ Where my real niggas at? ♪
♪ Never wear tight pants, see the shape for a fag ♪
♪ All I see is a rat ♪
♪ If nigga's actin' like a queen, like a wuss, he gettin' dragged ♪
♪ Where my real niggas at? ♪
- Have you got a condom? - Oh, um, yeah,
in my bag, but it's in the um...
[SHE MOANS]
Ah, wait. Wait, wait.
Turn over. Turn over.
Bro, do you want some of this?
[HE MOANS]
Get on the bed.
I want to fuck you bareback.
Um... no, no, I don't do that.
I thought you were into everything?
Yeah, not that.
Come on.
[THEY MOAN]
- What, is that all you've got for me? - [THEY LAUGH]
[THEY MOAN]
- Yeah, I'm bouncin' still. - What? Wait, wait, wait, wait, wait.
Can I do anything for you?
Um...
Um... nothing.
Fuck him. You're amazing.
Now come here.
I'm going to come.
[HE MOANS]
[THEY PANT]
[HE CHUCKLES]
- Um, I better use the um... - Yeah, it's the first on the left.
[MUSIC: MR SUN (MISS DA SUN) BY GREENTEA PENG]
♪ I said, "Mr Sun ♪
♪ Where have you been?" ♪
♪ He told me, "Sorry, dear, I had to go away ♪
♪ But never have no fear, I'm always back again ♪
♪ I've got to show you the dark ♪
♪ So you can really feel the light, you know?" ♪
- ♪ I can't lie, I need you, Mr Sun ♪ - _
_
♪ Chasin' after you, I'm on the... ♪
[TOILET FLUSHES]
Um, there is a bin in the one across the hallway, sorry.
What?
- A bin for the condom. - Oh.
- There's a... - Oh.
Ah...
- Where'd you put the condom? - I...
I took it off. I thought you...
Oh, shit.
Um... Yeah, it got...
- ... uncomfortable, so... - You're joking.
No. No, look here, it's here.
There.
- Um? - I thought you knew.
Um, couldn't you feel it?
No, I couldn't fucking feel it.
I'm sorry, I'm so sorry.
Um...
- ... Zain?! - Um, I... I...
- I... I didn't want to stop cos it... it was... - Um...
I don't know, maybe that's normal for you,
- but that was... - Yeah, no, but Zain!
- I have... I have to get the pill, -... pretty insane.
- for fuck's sake. - I know, I'm sorry. I'm so sorry. Um...
[SHE GROANS] Um...
- It was really fucking good though, right? - Yes, it...
Argh, you are paying for it.
Right, I'm going to wait outside.
That was fun.
Stay, stay.
Argh!
Fuck!
- What happened? - [KWAME GROANS]
Man, it's fine, it's fine. It's just my nail.
- It's fine. - Good.
- Come here. - No, look, I need to go.
Playing, I'm just playing.
- Just come on the bed. - Why?
Go on the bed.
Yo, yo, nah. We're not having sex again.
It's not sex.
- What the fuck, man? - [MALIK CHUCKLES]
Can you... ? Can you... ? Can you... ?
Can you stop that?!
[MALIK BREATHES HEAVILY]
Can you just get off me? Get...
Get the fuck off me.
[MALIK MOANS]
- Oh. - [MALIK CHUCKLES]
What can I say,
I'm a bad boy.
See ya.
Done.
[KWAME BREATHES RAGGEDLY]
[HE BREATHES RAGGEDLY]
[DIAL TONE]
[PHONE BUZZES]
Hi, bae.
Hey.
You all right?
Um, yeah, yeah, yeah. You?
I'm good, bae. What you want?
Um... I'm just going... going bed,
I just thought I'd say goodnight, bae.
Aw, love you, bae.
Night, bae.
[THEY LAUGH]
[MUSIC: MR SUN (MISS DA SUN) BY GREENTEA PENG]
♪ Woke up today and the sun was shining ♪
♪ I said, "Mr Sun ♪
♪ Where have you been?" ♪
♪ He told me, "Sorry, dear, I had to go away ♪
♪ But never have no fear, I'm always back again ♪
♪ I've got to show you the dark ♪
♪ So you can really feel the light, you know?" ♪
♪ I can't lie, I need you, Mr Sun. ♪
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